A Glimpse Of Me.

for real, for real and not for fake.

2009-04-29T22:20:00.001-07:00

I'm switching over :)

Here!

Finally.

No more fickle. No more scared. No more self-conscious.

Taking this baby by the hand and RUNNING with it ;)

Haha. I'm sleepy. That explains it, no? Maybe a little? Heh.

Theme song for today: Jason Mraz's The Remedy.

Peace out, guys! See you at my new thought bubble home :)

Comments would be nice every now and again ;) Just sayin'

this is my call, i belong to you.

2009-04-26T21:06:00.002-07:00

It was really sunny today! :) And warm too!

I was happy :)

But not only because of that. Remember my post about Easter? How i was struggling with the idea of it?

Today during worship, it suddenly hit me. It really is worthy of celebration. Woohoo! Sorry, i'm a little slow, i know. Rumor has it that i was dropped on my head many a time as a child. I blame gravity.

Anyway, explanation time.

I guess something we tend to forget when we think of Jesus is that He was human. We imagine him being this man in a shiny white robe that sparkles and blinds, floating around healing one sick person after another. *insert awe music*

But He was a human being just like us. He felt hunger, temptation, loneliness and had a need to be loved too. He was made out of flesh and blood and felt pain the same way that we do, physical and emotional.

The main thing that came into my head today was Garden of Gethsemane. So i read it up, in all 4 gospels.

In Matthew 26: 38, "He told them, 'My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death. Stay here and watch with me.'" In 26: 39, he goes on to say, "My Father! If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet, I want your will, not mine."

In Mark 14: 36, "'Abba, Father,' he said, 'everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet, I want your will, not mine.'"

In Luke 22: 44, "He prayed more fervently, and he was in such agony of spirit that his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood."

John 17 is a really good one. I'm not gonna type it all out. But read it if you will and/or want to. It's good. Very... enlightening.

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Do you see how i see it now?

This man was going to die. And he fully understood the weight of it all, the pain that he had to bear. He was scared. He wanted out, if it was possible. But more than anything, he wanted the will of his Father to be done.

Can you imagine his desperation that "his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood". Imagine this mental image.. Close up to this man's forehead, he is kneeling face down on the ground in desperation, crying out to his Father for help. So desperate that the sweat that is forming on his forehead is piling up to big droplets, heavy enough for gravity to pull it's weight down. That was how desperate he was!

I found the whole thing very symbolic. Although it does not even come close to what Jesus had to experience, but don't we all go through this?

Don't we all have moments when we are just kneeling face down on the ground before God, praying that he will relieve us from our pain/ fears/ worries?

So anyways, cut the preach-y short, Jesus went through with it, bore the pain in full force (I cannot even begin to imagine what that was like), and well, died.

BUT here comes the good news! :) He resurrected! It's good! The sun is shining again! People have been set free! He returned to his original glory! Hearts are on fire! All is happy clappy! :)

And THAT is why we celebrate Easter.

I'm glad.

Next year, par-taaaaaaaay! :) :) :) Wanna join me?

Peace Out! Forgive the preach-y please ;)

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All verses taken from NLT. All emphasis added by me.

hey, lovers!

2009-04-26T06:02:00.000-07:00

despite advice from many people, 5 in total, asking me not to do it, i started a wordpress blog :P

i have like 2 posts on my wordpress blog.

i still can't figure it out and shall stick with blogger for now :)

the only reason why i was gonna switch was because i can't take this boring theme! and all of blogger's boring themes! and i don't have the brains or the time to sift through a million and 3 different blog skins :P

blogger is so much more simple and makes life easier :) but i think that wordpress' gazillion functions makes it very attractive too. we'll see ;)

on a side note, no, i cannot blog without smileys :) how else will you read my emotions? gosh.

i was told i was hard to read. i hope it's in a good way though.

But how can it possibly be good?

i don't know. maybe?

2009-04-24T21:53:00.000-07:00

This is the wordpress address : http://raycheerache.wordpress.com

I'm not sure if i'm switching yeeeeT!

Having major writer's block. Or actually, life block.

Everything just seems to be on a stand still.

My motivation and passion seem to have left me.

Maybe it's just today.

Maybe it really is the time for change. The time to just drop everything and start anew.

Maybe it starts with a new blog.

Something definitely needs to change. Or i WILL shoot myself.

Peace OUt! :)

I may be sad today but i still love y'all! :)

idealistic idealisms.

2009-04-13T21:39:00.000-07:00

Confidence, i read, is the problem.

But i think that maturity is.

Like the song Your Head's Too Big by the Ditty Bops goes, "Your head's so big and tall, i'm surprised your thoughts are small."

Yes, a confident person will not be ashamed of who he/ she is. But will they ever know how to draw the line between confidence and self-love?

Yes, confidence is attractive. But what if confidence seeps into arrogance?

I feel that's where maturity steps in and interjects. I need maturity. And i daresay, even before confidence. But it's hard to believe that confidence is not where maturity is :)

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"Live through this and you won't look back."
Your Ex-lover is Dead by Stars

"Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures."
Nothing Better by The Postal Service

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i feel like switching over to wordpress ~_~ just coz it looks better. i dunno. should i?

but i've been using blogger for so many years! and i'm a loyal person! hehe :P

the concept of it all.

2009-04-12T03:34:00.000-07:00

So today i was talking to a friend who never goes to church.

It was like 2 in the morning. And i'm not usually up this late when there's church in the morning but i was too full to go to sleep. Long story short, i was talking to my friend. And he says, "I have to go soon, Rachel. I have to wake up to go to church for Easter Service."

My eyes almost popped out of my head.. No. Out of it's socket? Maybe that's the better way to say it.

Easter has never been a big deal for me. (Oh no! What crazy talk is this?)

To me, the great thing about Easter is that someone created a Bunny who hides our pretty chocolate eggs.

Don't get me wrong. I know the theory behind Easter. It's a day of celebration. It's the day that Jesus resurrected :)

It's a day to remind us of His goodness and mercy and grace. Yes.

But shouldn't we be reminded of all that daily? Well, if not daily, constantly? (I admit that i don't do it as often as i should. But i am reminded of it more than ONCE a year.)

I don't know. For the past few days, this is what i have been struggling with. The idea of Easter.

Should it just be ONE day where we get all religious and go to church because Jesus died and rose again, that's cool and we should give him props?

Shouldn't it be submitting to His grace everyday?

Maybe someone can give me some insight? I don't have the answer or even a clue on this one.

Perhaps i will get some insight tomorrow at church :P i can't be missing Easter Service now can i? Hahaha.

For now, I'm just going to sleep and pray that Easter Service will do miracles in my friend's life. That he will give more than props to Jesus but perhaps maybe his life too? :)

Peace out!

i bookmarked the page that said;

2009-04-10T21:31:00.000-07:00

"Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled by him, but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him." - Matthew Henry

Yay? Yay. Yay!

It's true though. That's why sometimes i don't understand girls that control their boyfriends or just their guy friends in general.

...Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him...

And i also don't understand girls who are too scared to stand up to certain guys in their lives. Or that will do or "sacrifice" so many things for the guy that they "love".

...neither out of his feet to be trampled by him...

I think that we should realize the truth and stop receiving the information we get from the world as rules that we should live by.

The truth is, we were made "...out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him..."

And this is bringing things back to perspective, back to it's original glory. The glory it was intended to be.

I think we should just let God tell the story instead of trying to write it ourselves. He is good. Very very good. And the outcome would be far greater, more exciting, and far more beautiful than we can ever imagine or expect :) :) :)

That's my God!

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Phew! Long day today.

i want to wear blue.

2009-04-07T20:02:00.001-07:00

but i own nothing that's blue. like really blue, y'know.

oh well.

apple juice!

i love LovE LOVE apple juice. i can't explain it. i just do! i walked to a 24 hour deli in the really cold cold cold just to get me some apple juice. and mmmmhmm.. it's good and i'm happy :) :) :) it's filled with vitamin c too!

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i LOVE this song. It's too cute! :)

I realized that so many people are searching for the same thing. Love.

It's funny.

I'm not gonna lie, i am too.

But it's kinda funny that that's what most people are looking for. Why does it seem like we're losing out on something if we don't have this love? Strange.

I'm not talking about love from God or family because most of us have it.

But i'm talking about love, love. Being in love with someone else. Sharing a special relationship with someone else that only the 2 of you own.

The people that write/ sing about love are the awesomest, funniest, smartest and wittiest people i've come across. And i just find it strange that they can't seem to find that perfect someone.

But maybe, just maybe, that perfect someone doesn't exist? And if we just drop those crazy expectations, we'll be able to find that perfect someone?

I refuse to believe that. Ha!

Ok bye!

My Attention Span.

2009-04-05T22:10:00.000-07:00

... or the lack thereof.

So i just realized today, more like, agreed with the fact that i have the shortest attention span in the whole universe times 212. Haha! Yes. I'm being a drama queen again. So sue me :P omg. green and pink reminds me of watermelons! whee!

Why I Came To This Conclusion:

People constantly tell me how bad my attention span is.
Today, I was supposed to wash the hand-cloth in the restaurant. I was kinda excited because I just learned how to do it yesterday and it means that I get to escape the busy-ness of the restaurant. So, i was happily going to the basement, being proud of myself for being handed this huuuuge responsibility, thinking of what a greeeeaaaat hand-cloth-washer i am going to be. I went to the machine, put in all the cloth, and turned it on. *Sigh of relief* "Good job, Rachel.", I say to myself. 2 hours later, i had to take the cloth out of the machine. On the way back to the machine, i realized that i forgot to put in the detergent. *Doink!*
Usually when people talk to me, i hear the first 2 words and stare at them as if i'm listening intently. After about 30 seconds, if they're sentence ends with their voice going higher, indicating that it was a question they just asked, i go, "Huh? Whaaaaaat?". Wait. I do that when they say statements too. Haha :P
In long conversations, i get distracted by the blue sky, clouds in different shapes that tell a story, birds, food, anything around me that's soft, cushy and cuddly. Or the song that is stuck in my head. Or a random incident that happened anytime from 3 minutes to 3 years ago.
As I type this, I'm in the middle of reading an email on my hotmail account AND in the middle of replying an email on my gmail account.
I have so many other examples but i'm already distracted and can do this no more.

Heheheeee!

The weather was pretty today :) I wish i could have been outdoors the whole day! But i have to work. Oh well.

Daddy told me a story of how hard he had to work when he was my age. So now i'm motivated to do the same. No more complaining! Woo-Hoo!

I miss my parents :( They're always so wise :) :) :)

"Listen to mommy and daddy! They're right most of the time!"

Not Feeling The Colors.

2009-04-02T09:33:00.000-07:00

I changed the background to gray :) It's dark gray so there's hardly a difference.

I don't like it. But i don't really like black either.

What should i do?

Use blog skins? But those things confuse me. Eek! ~_~

My internet wasn't working yesterday so i had to sit in my living room for the first time since i moved here. It was fun! We listened to my roommate's old records...

... and spoke japanese! I kid you not. One of my roommates is japanese and his friend from japan came over. Fun times! I got to practice my japanese. So it was good! :)

And for the first time, 80% of us who live in the apartment were home at the same time. Yay!

Yes. I get over-excited over stupid things. Hehehee!

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I had a fun but tiring day today. But fun. And i definitely over-ate. *shame shame* hehe

My internet is still broken. It was working fine this morning and i was excited. But it's not working anymore. I have to connect the cable directly to my computer. And sit in the living room. I feel like i'm living in a dorm. Haha.

I bought a pink dice to hang on my phone! Me like. It's the pooofy kind. I don't know how to explain it.

Remember how i used to have this blue one in high school that i bring everywheeeere?! Hehehe. I'm such a dork. But i like it. Dice, i mean. Not being a dork :P But maybe that too! I dunno. Pfft.

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Good lines from songs:-

"Life can be so simple if we all just learn to pray"
Every Little Thing by Hawk Nelson

"If you don't mind would you tell me all your hopes and fears and everything that you believe in. Would you make a difference in the world? I'd love for you to take me into a deeper conversation."
Deeper Conversation by Yuna

"Son, fear is the heart of love."
A Lack of Color by Death Cab For Cutie

"You and me, we couldn't stand being normal. That's why we make a good you and me."
You and Me by Plain White T's

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Loud loud party next door. I wish the walls were thicker. But the music makes me feel like I'm in Space :) :) :) So i guess it's not all thaaaat bad :P

The Upper East Side.

2009-03-30T23:54:00.000-07:00

It's true.

It exists. It's a real community with waaaay too much money.

I haven't mentioned it here but I got a serving job in a japanese restaurant on the upper east side. Yippee! And today was my first day.

It's soooo much work. But i shall not go into details. That will be for another day.

The Upper East Siders or UES-ers, as i like to call them, vary in shape and sizes and.. dum dum dum.. temperament.

Here's a list of the various ones i've encountered:

The weirdo who thinks he's all that because he has a company credit card. (Now, don't be confused. He is not a true UES-er. He just works in the neighborhood and likes to imagine being one of them, reserving his "usual spot" at 12pm every afternoon at his favorite japanese restaurant, where he can eat pretentious and expensive food for free and drink his diet coke with his pinky sticking out as he sips from the straw. Oh wait forgive me. His lemon diet coke. And, i kid you not, it's more than one guy. I'm not pin-pointing. A few of these walk in on the same day.)
The female lunch time regulars. (Definitely Liquor on the table at some point of the day. Huge engagement rings on their left ring-finger. Scrolling their Blackberries. Designer sweaters that do not flatter them. Hair tied up in pony tail. Gossiping about emails they've received. Nice people.)
The Rich College Couple. (Go watch Gossip Girl. Very similar. I personally do not watch GG but have heard much and seen a couple of episodes. So i'm hoping this statement does them justice.)
The Perfect Family with 2 kids below 12. (It is definitely every child's (or adults with slightly deprived childhood) dream to be part of this family. Parents with good tempers talking to their children like their adults. Joking around. Happy smiles. Never gets angry even when a certain first-day waitress took the wrong order. Parents who asks their children if they want dessert. Need I say more?)
My favorite, the BLACK AmEx card. (Oh, my heart, it just swooned. I touched it. It was in my hands. The Black AmEx card that I've only heard of. I heard you can buy a private jet with this card. It is that amazing. It doesn't even feel like a regular credit card. Private Jet. Black Card. My hands. Do the math.)
The People Who Knows They're Rich and Smirks at You Every Chance They Get. (Casually drops the fact that they are wearing a (very hideous, mind you) Versace shirt. Tries ordering sake but does not know what type there are. Names an unknown brand of sake and claims that it exists. Does not know what they want but pretend that they've got the whole menu memorized.)

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Diner Dash has definitely trained me well to work in a restaurant. It's exactly the same. Just that it physically hurts. Hahaha! :P

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Today i feel like doing this. So I did. And here you go.

[Insert Name Here], you can only be the best person you can be. Then, you have to leave the rest of it to God. If God wills it, and if it's in his plan for you, which makes it the best thing for you, it will happen for you. Good things will come. You just have to make sure your heart is in the right place, where God is. And not where your understanding brings you. Not everything your sight shows you is true. The road doesn't end at the vanishing point. It keeps going on and on and on. You don't see past the vanishing point. But God KNOWS what lies beyond the vanishing point. It's along the lines of what you've always dreamed of but better, more amazing, and beyond your WILDEST imagination. Yay! :)

This thought and belief is one of the major reasons why I am always so happy. Even when bad things happen. But these last few months, I have lost sight of it. Let's just say that it was in my blindspot. Hence, many the emo posts.

So now that I see it again, just thought i'd share.

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"Tip MORE!"

Super tired but don't know why i can't sleep. Must be the adrenaline.

:) :) :) Smiles for EVERYONE!!! :) :) :)

There There Here?! What????

2009-03-30T06:22:00.000-07:00

Another one of Sarah's tags! Whee! It's super early in the morning. And i don't even know why i'm doing this now instead of the 3 other things in my mind that seems more important right now; getting dressed, preparing breakfast, reading.

But here goes..

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.

What is your name: Rachel!
A four letter word: Rain!
A boy’s name: Rufus! :P
A girl’s name: Roxanne!
An occupation: Rapper! Haha
A color: Ruby Red! Ha! Double Rs! Beat that!
Something you’ll wear: Rain boots! I waaaant :(
A food: Rendang! Yummm!
Something found in the bathroom: Rack!
A place: Russia? I don't know why but saying that gives me the chills. Maybe coz it's super cold there.. Heh :P Or maybe it's just super cold in my room! Ha!
A reason for being late: Rachel's beauty sleep!
Something you’d shout: Reeeeaaaally?!!!!!
A movie title: Rushmore!
Something you drink: Root Bear!
A musical group: Reel Big Fish! :)
An animal: Raccoon!
A street name: Roy Street? I'm sure there's one in NY somewhere! Hahaha
A type of car: Race Car!
The title of a song: Rootless Tree!
Tag 5 people: Sara, Alina, Sheryl, Jo, Leann

So that's it!

I'm off to make breakfast now! :)

Feel like hugging a giant teddy bear and stay in bed aaaaaall day. My cousin, Cynthia, has one and it's the most comfy and comforting thing to hug! :) :) :)

Back Here Again.

2009-03-29T18:39:00.000-07:00

I was just wondering today..

Will anyone really know me?

Do people worry about the same question? Or have most people found that person who knows them and that it's only me who has not?

I want someone to know me so well that that person knows my next move. As unpredictable as i would like to think that i am, i think that if one truly knows me, that person will know.

*I'm saying "know" too many times, the word is starting to not make sense to me. Does that happen to you too? Hehe :P*

When someone knows you, will you finally know yourself?

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I used street chalk! And yes, i drew. Not prettily. But i did :)

It was one of the things that i really really wanted to do in NY. Draw on the streets and i did! Hence, Rachel = Happy.

Rachel could be happier though. Why is it so hard for people to be really content?

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Gosh. So many questions i wish i had the answer to.

"Did Earth Hour make a difference?"

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Yet another emo one. Bear with me. And then give me a teddy bear to hug! Or just a bear hug will do! :P

Loves.

Nuts.

2009-03-25T22:24:00.000-07:00

Between 5pm to 10pm on March 25th 2009.

5.00 pm - Hmm.. I have time to kill before my edit lab slot at 7pm.
5.01 pm - *Reads book in park* What pretty weather :)
6.15 pm - Oh no! Finish reading book. Now what? I have 1 more hour.
6.17 pm - *Looks around* *Beam of light from heaven shines upon Barnes&Noble* (It's a book store)
6.18 pm - Ruuuuuun to Barnes&Noble.
6.19 pm - Immediately rides the multiple escalators to my favorite floor. The highest one! With film books, literature, philosophy and other fun stuff! ;)
6.21 pm - *Remembers Andre talking about "The Great Divorce" and Soren Kierkegaard*
6.22 pm - Spots random Soren Kierkegaard book. Picks it up. Looks for "The Great Divorce".
6.24 pm - Finds "The Great Divorce" in front of an empty chair. Score!
6.24 pm - Picks up book and turns around to proceed to chair. Chair taken -__-" I left it for one second. That's how vicious these New Yorkers are with book store chairs.
6.25 pm - Looks for a little corner to hide to read books. Finds an isolated isle. Perfect! Time to get comfy. Sits on floor.
6.26 pm - Opens "Works of Love" by Soren Kierkegaard. Read.
6.27 pm - "Wow." Mouth gaping and everything. And that was just the first page.
6.50 pm - After being so into the entire first chapter, I finally look up from the book to take a breather and let the information sink in.
6.51 pm - Notice that people walking by were staring. Looks around. Looks up. Only to discover 2 giant shelves of gay/ lesbian fiction and kama sutra. *Blush Blush*
6.52 pm - Picks up books and bags and moves to a different spot.
7.30 pm - Stomach growling. I want this book. It's $17 bucks! Maybe i should go to Strand (discount book store)
7.40 pm - Arrive at Strand. Runs to philosophy corner. Hehe. My favorite floor in Strand; basement :)
7.50 pm - THEY DON'T HAVE IT!!! :(
7.52 pm - Browsing around Strand, found many books on my Books To Read Wish List for very very cheap. Thinks, "No No No. Don't be greedy. Come back when you actually have money. Or time to read them for that matter."
7.55 pm - Exited Strand a very sad sad Rachel :(
8.05 pm - Back in Barnes&Noble, Fourth Floor, picks up same book. Looks for chair, sit, and read. Mmmhm :)
8.45 pm - Mune calls to go for dinner. Thinks, "If i go for dinner, i can't buy this book."
8.55 pm - Complains to Mune about book being expensive. Mune says it's not. I secretly smile and scheme to get it.
9.15 pm - Eat cheap dinner :)
9.40 pm - Back in Union Square. Barnes&Noble is still open.
9.41 pm - Ruuuuuns in and purchases book.
9.45 pm - Exited Barnes&Noble a very happy Rachel but a very guilty one too :(

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March 26th 2009.

12.30 am - Reads book happily! :) "This man is so so so smart."

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Why did i just write the longest and stupidest account of a book purchase you ask?

Because i feel so guilty about spending money i don't really have. But at the same time, i think this book is awesome ;)

On the first page,

"Indeed, one can be deceived in many ways; one can be deceived in believing what is untrue, but on the other hand, one is also deceived in not believing what is true; one can be deceived by appearances, but one can also be deceived by the superficiality of shrewdness, by the flattering conceit which is absolutely certain that it cannot be deceived."

And the book is filled with sentences like this. It visits both ends of the spectrum on each matter and makes you think.

Are my actions justified yet? :P

Probably not.

It's a good book though ;)

I'm happy and excited!!! :) :) :)

I'm ill. What people have with DVDs and CDs, I have with books.

And before i leave NY, i'm sooo gonna stock up on all these great books that i can't get in Malaysia.

Did i mention that i might be leaving soon? :(

"Spring is here! Spring is here! Spring is here!"

i wish i could be as awesome as this list. ha!

2009-03-23T12:48:00.000-07:00

Here are some things I really want to do. But have not. Simple and achievable ones. Not like my crazy ambitions. Heh.

1. Have a really good conversation over an equally good glass/ bottle of wine with a special someone.
Talking about serious stuff and laughing at silly jokes.
With Death Cab For Cutie playing softly in the background and occasionally getting up to dance :)

2. Running around in the rain with friends.
And giggling my head off, sliding around the wet streets with people I love the most :)

3. Cycling under the clear blue sky on a big green field.
One time alone. And another with company ;)
Just to admire the beauty of creation and to inhale fresh air :)

So that's the list.
Hooray! I hope I can strike at least one of them off this year :)
Oh me oh my. I think i'm actually growing up!
And looking at things realistically. *gasp*

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Because I stalk people on Facebook, i found out that some of my friends are "In A Relationship", to quote the Facebook status. And it made me really excited and happy for them! :)

Some of them are people younger than me and i'm like, "Wahh! They're all grown up!" *smiles to self*

So yeahh, all their happy pictures made my heart smile :) It also made me giggle very loudly when i was using the public computers in NYFA and made heads turn.

But it's all good. Yes, random. So sue me :P

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Life is not awesome right now. (I've only really said this less than 5 times in my life coz I don't like negativity too much) And my trusting in God is really being tested. Hard.

BUT to quote Dory, sometimes we just gotta, "Just keep swimmin' Just keep swimmin"

*wink*

"You aussies, hug a koala bear for me will ya?!" :P

Sleepy time. Loves.

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PS. Today was so so so cold, my teeth hurt when i open my mouth. Heheheee!

he's just not that into you.

2009-03-19T23:21:00.000-07:00

Yes. I watched it.

I know i know. WHY?!

I was in the mood for a chick flick. We all get that urge every once in a while. Don't deny it! :P

Anyway, it was good. Not so much the movie. Heh. But the message and it's ability to make me squirm and squeak. Hahaha! I reallly did. So many times. And i was like, "No! No! No! Don't do it!" :P

Good times.

My favorite scene in the movie :)

Basically the movie starts off talking about everything that the book says. All the signs, all the rules. It kinda annoyed me, all the rules. Partly because it's true and mostly because i wished it wasn't true.

But as the movie goes on, it starts challenging everything the book says. And i was like, "oh yeeeaahh."

It tells you to keep hoping. I like that :)

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I wish they told us the truth when we were growing up. Then, we wouldn't be so confused.

If only everything was that simple.

We'd be able to run with the wind, chase the stars, and dance under the moonlight like they promised. Mmmhmm :)

But maybe, just maybe, they didn't lie?

"Sing to me the songs of the stars,
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again,
When it feels like my dreams are so far,
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again."

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Too much "deep" thinking. Something i rarely do because it's hard to keep happy that way :P

That's what i think at least ;)

"Turn off the water when you're brushing your teeth please!"

Feel Like Smiling?

2009-03-15T20:16:00.000-07:00

:P

Yes. Very jakun about this youtube video uploading extravaganza. Haha!

But seriously, girls, this will definitely make you smile :) And boys, i think it's something you can relate to. Definitely, maybe? ;)

This version has the lyrics in it. Too lazy to look for it and fill up space here. Heh

Aren't you in a good mood now? :) :) :)

Glad i could help! Heh heh! :P

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Today was not that great a day for me. But the people around me were so happy, it made my heart smile a little too :)

Should definitely smile when the only other option is to cry. Amen. Heh :P

Time will make things better.

To Quote Jay Chou:

"也許時間是一種解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥"

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"Use less shampoo when you wash your hair!" :)

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Bye for now!

Definitely need to stop blogging so much and use my time to be more productive. Heheeee!

Peace out! :P

Sticky Stuff!

2009-03-14T21:01:00.000-07:00

The mood of my blog has been so solemn lately. I apologize.

But here's something to make you laugh and think. It's an awesome song by Flight of the Conchords :) My favorite part, of course, is when they go.. "The sticky stuff." Heheheheee! Makes me laugh aaaall the time. I don't even know why.

Went for a show today. They sang an awesome rendition of this song. Laughed till i almost pee-ed in my pants! =P

It's so soothing to watch people perform live. And it's so much fun too! :)

Definitely the prefect stress relief. Yay!

I'm happy today :) Good company *wink*Janet*wink* and a good show is always awesome.

"Fatal Flaw by South Jordan is on loop on my computer. Acoustic version thank you very much."

For Therapeutic Purposes Only.

2009-03-13T22:35:00.000-07:00

I finally did it. I let go.

I've been having the hardest time moving on from something. A self-destructive obsession.

The crazy thing about obsessions are, you realize that it's there. You know something is wrong. Then, you justify your obsession. Every one tells you that you are hurting yourself. When you realize that it's bad for you, you "quit", only to find ways around your justification and back to said obsession.

I don't know how I did it. Or if i'm even going to last this time. But I hope that I will.

It hurts. It scarred. It took away a big chunk of my time.

But now i'm moving forward. It's good.

Treating my wounds with Hawk Nelson. Mhmm.. :)

Growing up sucks. I just wanna run in the rain and giggle till I fall on my bum bum.

My Tummy Calls Out For Thee.

2009-03-11T16:03:00.000-07:00

I have been craving ice cream for the past forever. Not just any ice cream. The Gelato kind :)

Yes. I like being pretentious every once in a while. Heh.

Unfortunately, no one wants to go get any with me coz it's cold. Well, cold schmold. You guys just hate mehh! Hehe. I kid I kid.

I stole some ice-cream from my friend's house yesterday. But it's just not the saaaaaame! *Bursts into hysterical tears*

I haven't seen one of these in a very very long time. I've never seen it here in New York. I waaaaaant! :'(

Oh well. Gelato is pretty :) And it tastes even prettier! :) :) :) Is that enough to tempt someone to go on this excursion with me? :P

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I wanna see stars in the sky! Dang you, pollution! :(

"Stop pollution please! Bring out the stars! Whee!"

7 hours of sleep and 11 oreos later.

2009-03-10T12:12:00.001-07:00

Hello! Here I am blogging again!

Haha. Blogging. Isn't that such a funny word?

It's like Snorkeling. Or Boggling. Or Fuhnagaling. But not at all! Hehehe

Ooooh.! There goes my sugar fix for the day.. o.O

*twitch* *twitch*

My friend was talking about intriguing blogs the other day. Uhmm.. I actually read it on hers. Hehe. Yes I'm a dork. So sue me.

And i thought about the few that i read. 3-5 maybe? And i stalk them. Like, i'm always checking for updates (more than twice a day) and then smiling to myself about what they wrote. Haha. I wish i had that kind of wisdom and wit.

Ahhh.. My favorite line.. "Oh how i wish.."

I definitely live my life in my head. I really should stop that. It's like a disease. No. It is not mental illness. *denial*

Haha. And yes. The constantly talking to myself in public needs to stop too :P

What was i saying again?

Ooooh! Time for another oreo! They're soooooo delicious! Yum Yum Yummmmmmm! :) :) :)

"Chew your food before you swallow!"

Give Me Wings. Or Hide Me Under Yours.

2009-03-08T19:31:00.000-07:00

It's nice to see pretty people together.

Pretty boys always always have pretty girlfriends. And pretty girls.. Well.. Most of the time, have pretty boyfriends.

So what happens to the rest of us? :P

Sometimes, i find it sad that all the pretty (i'm not talking about appearance. no no, not at all) guys are taken.

I want a pretty guy to sing for me and...

:)

Yes. That would be very nice indeed.

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As much as guys like to be called Heroes, girls like to be fought for, to know that she is worth the battle.

And she usually is.

I wish guys could see that and grow some!

You can't be called a Hero unless you actually save and protect someone.

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I want to go bungee jumping!! WhoopDeeDoo!! Wanna come with? :) :) :)

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Today was all about grace. I needed it.

I needed to know that it is done. There's nothing i can do to change it. He died for me.

I couldn't have prevented it. I couldn't have made it better. All i can do is to accept it and move on with life.

I have to live my life. The life that he fought for. The life that he suffered for.

He is still fighting for my heart. He wants it, all of it, more than I can ever comprehend.

Why am I holding back?

"Garbage in trash can please. And ice cream in Rachel's mouth please. Thank you!" :)

maybe i won't die when i'm 40.

2009-03-07T14:49:00.000-08:00

Not too long ago, i had to let go my dream of being a hobo coz i just wasn't cut out for it. And i speak from experience.

And now, i think i have to give up my dream of dying at 40 :(

I know i can't really dictate it. Heck, i might die tomorrow. *knock knock wood* But 40 was the goal :)

I wanted to have achieved everything i want to do in life and.. well.. die. Happy! :)

But now that i'm at the "mid-point" *gasp!*, all my dreams seem so far away. There are so many things to do and so little time!

Now i know why my uncle was sooooo upset when he turned 40. He haven't achieved half the things that he wanted to.

I hope that i can at least achieve 2/3rds of what i want to do by the time i'm 40. I'll be happy enough :) :) :)

I just need to focus focus hocus pocus!

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On a lighter note, I was feeling very upset yesterday (Haha. Irony. I'm a fan.). I really don't know why. I think it's PMS. Heh heh.

And it made me almost break my fast. (I'm practicing Lent this year) I feel like i'm hanging by a thread and it's only been 6 days! How did Jesus do 40 days? How does anyone do 40 days?

But God, being who He is, is always good. And despite being upset yesterday, He still managed to give me a bounce in my step when i thought about chocolate croissant and tea :) Yummm..

He gave me the peace i needed when i went to bed. The nightmares I've been having for the past week didn't come back.

I just LOVE being His little girl. And jumping around in my cute little pink TuTu to bring a smile onto His face.

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I don't usually post lyrics, but here's a good one ;)

Jesus loves me this I know,
For the bible tells me so,
Little ones to him belong,
They are weak but He is strong.

Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
The bible tells me so.

Jesus loves me when I'm good,
When I do the things I should,
Jesus loves me when I'm bad,
Though it makes him very sad.

Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
The bible tells me so.

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It stings every time I read it. I don't want to make Him sad.

"Wash your socks clean clean!"

Addicted.

2009-03-02T14:16:00.000-08:00

Soon Do Bu. Oh how you make my heart beat faster. My nose crinkles up in excitement when i smell your scent. My mouth waters like a rushing river when i think about you. Oh, my Soon Do Bu. Oh how i wish i could spend the rest of my life with you.

I'm so freaking addicted to Soon Do Bu. It's a korean dish with tofu. Lots and lots of tofu. And it's so so so good. I wish i knew how to cook it. I shall learn! *determined* It's so good. But it's a good 10 bucks >.< No monehhh!

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There was a snow storm (that's what the weather report called it anyway) today. I was supposed to move but i couldn't because there was too much snow! I was kinda upset. But secretly, i haven't even finished packing. So maybe it's a good thing?

BUT at the same time, all i can think about ALL day is Soon Do Bu but I'm not gonna run out in the cold and wet streets just to spend too much money on it. So i guess i'll have to wait till next week. But i'm moving far away from my Soon Do Bu heaven. That makes me kinda sad.

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Have NOT found a job. Feel like killing myself (not in the actual sense but in my head).

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I wish i was a cartoon character.

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It's the first day of Lent :)

I've never really celebrated Lent. I usually only do it in August in Malaysia when we have the 40-day fast and prayer book.

But this year, I decided to celebrate Lent :) So we'll see how that goes ;) Hehe

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Once again, I've been very much humbled by God. You know sometimes when you kinda know that He's speaking to you? It's so amazing. It's so amazing to know that the great and almighty God is chasing after our hearts.

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"Don't eat the snow on the streets!"

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And that is how my head works. Thoughts scattered everywhere. Ha!

Loves.

Hmm..

2009-02-28T21:51:00.000-08:00

I feel like walking around and randomly hugging people :)
I like hugs and smiles.

"Don't waste food! And support original music!"

My 100th :)

2009-02-26T22:46:00.000-08:00

Yay! It's finally heeeeere! I've been counting and counting and writing and writing, waiting for this very moment. My 100th post! Woot Woot! :) :) :)

It's no big deal, i know. But anything that's a hundred, just amazes me! :)

And yes, I'm easily amused.

Sooooo.. *awkward silent moment*.. *whistles*.. *looks around*..

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Been dealing with a lot lately. But i'm still trying to make myself go through the motions. Pray. Read. Eat. Sleep.

Trying to learn After Effects is starting to take a toll on me. I'm just getting really tired and everything seems so meaningless.

Like one of my favorite versus says, "Vanity of vanities; all is vanity." --Ecclesiastes 1:2

And this is from the wisest man who ever lived, King Solomon. He's a man who was given all the knowledge and wisdom in the world. Yet, he concluded that all is vain. All is meaningless.

I can read this book in the Bible over and over again and never get bored. I get something new every time. It's a really short book, only 12 chapters :)

It gets good though. He explains everything he says and makes really really good points. What he's trying to say when he says "meaningless", is that everything that we do comes down to choice. We can choose to feel hopeless about it, or we can follow God and His plan for us. That's why at the end of each "theory", King Solomon says that all is meaningless anyways. Hebrew word: hebel :)

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I'm at this point in my life where I have to make a lot of decisions. I know what I want. And i really hope it works out. Right now, I don't see how any of my dreams will work out. But i'm just gonna keep working till I get there. SO here's the list.

I want to get as much experience as possible in Film.
I want to spend 6 months working in a farm in Australia/ New Zealand :)
I want to be a bungee jumping instructor for a year. Somewhere exciting.
I want to live in a foreign country, delivering baked goods. A beautiful country, like Spain or something. (Ok. maybe not baked goods. But a fun job like that, you know?)
I just wanna travel the world. Company would be good :)
I want to drink a pretentious cup of espresso in an European country by the street corner.
BoraBora! Of course....... :P
After all that, i still want to be able to come back into Film and finally become a Director.

I don't know how ANY of this is going to be possible. I might laugh about it in 5 years. Or i might read it again and be like "No. 2, 3, 6. Check!" :) :) :) I am hoping for the latter.

"Smile at someone just to make their day!"

*manvoice* and this has been a community outreach by Banana Pumpkin Squarepants.

I'm Twenty! 20! Yay! Yay? Oh! Nay! >.<

2009-02-19T19:03:00.000-08:00

So i was really hungry today and decided that i should cook some instant noodles for myself. AND since it is my birthday, i decided to top it off with chicken! hehe! :P

So i went to a chinese take-out place and bought some chicken. I came home, made my instant noodles, ate my chicken and now i look like this! I feel like it too! Eek! Since i will be working tomorrow, on my actual birthday, i decided to stay up till 12am and have a mini celebration with Germ, my cushy and cuddly pillow, and Addison, my blue and adorable teddy bear :) I can't wait! I'm going to make a wish and everything!

I'm happy that everyone wished me on Facebook :) It feels like you guys are part of the party too! I would have one if we're not at different parts of the world. It's funny. It's already my birthday everywhere else! Just not here. Yet.

I love birthdays! Especially when it's mine! Whee! :) :) :)

So, to commemorate, I took a picture of 20-years-old me! Hahaha! :P

Thank you for the birthday wishes! :) I WILL be happy! Thanks! Heheheeee! Banana Pants! :P

"Please recycle your aluminum cans! Thank you! :)"

My Birthdayyyyy! :)

2009-02-16T01:00:00.000-08:00

Anyone who knows me well, knows that I am craaaaazy when it comes to my birthday! It's my favorite time of the year! I'm the most festive on this day and all i wanna do is hang out with people that i love and that i know love me too!

I start dancing around, singing happy songs and have rainbows pop out of my ear! Hehe :) It's true. People will ask me what i want for my birthday and i will bashfully say, "Oh nothing." But the list will be long. I can tell you that much. Muahahaha! (This statement does not include family. Yes. I see your smirks! :P)

But this year, I really don't have the time to think about it at all. I would be working (for free! eek!) and it's just gonna be as unfestive as unfestive can get. Plus, I've been really busy preparing for this and that, looking for a job, etc. etc.

So today, i thought we were gonna celebrate Suan's (pastor's daughter) birthday and was really excited about it coz i feel that everyone is as happy about birthdays as me :)

And when we were gonna "surprise" her.. Me & Tim (bithday on the 17th) got a surprise too! Hehehe! Thinking about it makes me giggle! :) They decorated it with my favorite jelly beans too! With my name on it and everything!

I feel loved *sigh* :)

AND on top of that, I got 3 pounds worth of jelly beans! :) I just wanna swim in it! Hahaha.. It's not enough to swim in. But i wish i could!

So, i don't think that they/ you guys don't read this but i just wanna say, "THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS! I LOVE YOU GUYS MUCHOS!"

My Interview!! Yay!! :)

2009-02-08T21:17:00.001-08:00

I love sarah and all her great tags! Heheheeee!

1. Leave me a comment saying you want to be interviewed.
2. I’ll email you five questions, of my determination not yours!
3. You update your blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

1. Pick out an animal that best describes almost everything about you & state why.
Monkey! :) Ok. You guys can stop nodding in agreement now. Weeeell, i say monkey coz it's the first thing that came into my head. And i'm always crazily hyper-active and i randomly burst in excitement and retard-ation. I scratch my head sometimes. And my belly too! I would gladly pick kutu out of someone's head and scratch their back for them. And most of all, i like to make people smile/ laugh. The latter, obviously, being the better result :) :) :) And monkey also because i would like to have monkeys dressed up in tuxedos giving out roses on my wedding day. Heeeee!

2. Would you prefer to wrap a gift with a wrapping paper or instead, just stuff the gift into a box and tie a ribbon on it? Why?
Box and tie a ribbon! :) Coz i like receiving presents like that. Hehehe. I think it looks better and you get to the present faster! Muahahaha. But seriously, i think the anticipation is heightened with a box. No real reason. Just a feeling ;) That's how i do most things! Lalala~

3. Who would you most likely date? An engineer or an accountant & whyy? Haha, this came out really random, hee! :D
I would say an engineer :) Haha. More dynamics and creativity to it. That's all. Most importantly, he must be strong and have a kind heart at the same time! [i just watched Troy. hahaha.] Or if he is exactly like Goo Joon Pyo, i wouldn't mind either. heh :P

4. Complete this sentence: If I were a boy... [ No, not the lyrics to the song but yeah, hmm ]
If i were a boy.... I would be very good-looking! Hahaha! I kid. I kid. But i would be very clear with my decisions and wise and never ever break another person's heart. I would be kind and gentlemanly and a great buddy to my friends. I would go to war and protect my country. OR i would be in a boy band. Most importantly, i would still make films. Then, i would on occasion, excuse myself from a room just to fart and eat lots and lots of bananas and work out to be a muscle man. Ha! That was so random, i don't even know where it came from :P

5. What would you name your future kiddos? Let's say you've got 2 girls and 2 boys :) Lalala!
Boys: Drake and Phoenix
Girls: Melissa and Diamond

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Just realize that this is heavy reading for my fellow blog readers. Haha.

"Save the platypus!"

Mixed Emotions, a Ta-ag, and An Overdue Apology.

2009-02-06T21:41:00.001-08:00

I've a feeling that this is going to be a long one and a really mixed up and messy one. Just like what I'm feeling right about now.

OK. First of all, I just graduated and it just hit me that this is a major change in my life and the next move I take is going to determine where I'm going.

I'm not going to lie, I'm extreeeeemely freaked out.

I don't know where or how this feeling came about but I feel unwanted. Crazy right?! I know. Psychology friends! Help! Eeek!

This is going to seep into my Tag (by the lovely Sarah and Alexaxaxaxa!) so i'm just going to start it now. 10 random things, facts, habits, or goals about me.

I believe in living with passion and love for what you do. But as many have said, that's not going to feed me or give me a place to live.
I always have to chew on something when I'm nervous.
I absolutely LOVE candy.
I like colors! Lots of them! Jumbled together! It makes me happyyyyy :)
Sometimes, all i need to get me through a tough day is someone else's smile or laughter.
I'm a sucker for teddy bears and flowers (that's the girliest i will ever get)
I need assurance but i never ever show it (well, up till now of course! ha!)
I love my family and friends more than anything else (except God of course :P), and once you're in the circle (like in Meet The Parents/ Fockers) you'll never ever get out! Muahahahaha!
I'm secretly stalking someone else's blog that i found from a friend of a friend's blog. And i really look up to that person despite the fact that I've never met him or talked to him. The blog is kinda guiding my way through some tough times here. Now, THAT is random.
I wish that girls can really be swept off their feet by the perfect prince charming and that it will only happen once in a lifetime and it will last forever. That means, no more heartaches in this world! Yay!

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Back to mixed emotions.

I suddenly miss my family a lot a lot right now. BUT I hope I don't have to go home in 3 months.

3 months is the amount of time I have to get my act together before getting forced (not really forced but no other choice because no $$) to leave New York.

Totally do not know where I stand with God right now. I'm not going to lie.

"Do Not Litter! Pick Up Trash As You See It!"

Not knowing where I am with God, leads to the overdue apology. Now, this is getting personal so read if you want, skip if you're bored.

I wrote something to myself today. Not in my regular journal with God because I haven't been doing that in a long time. As i wrote, stuff just spilled out just like it normally does when i write about Him. This really made me think and well.. feel. Don't over think the content as you read. Think of the message. Because this made me realize that this is not the only time i've acted out like that. Hence, the public apology.

“I felt wanted and appreciated. It’s different than what I feel from God because this was something I could grasp. It was such a new thing to me. So new, that sometimes I would work harder for this appreciation. Was it worth it? I don’t think I can ever have the answer to that question.

This is the perfect example of taking God’s love for granted. At the back of my head, I always know that God is always there, He’ll always love me no matter what I do. So, I sin. I knowingly sin, with the thought that He’ll forgive me later. He always does.

I hate myself so much for doing that. If I were Him, I would hate me too. But He never does and that itself makes my heart ache even more. Sometimes, I can just imagine the disappointment in His face, the stabbing pain in His heart when I take His love for granted like that. I’m nailing Jesus to the cross and I’m spitting on His face.Yet He still loves me.

I dare not say I love Him because I feel so unworthy. But I know that that’s not what he wants. He doesn’t want me to run away in shame but to run to Him for comfort.”

So I just want to say, "I'm sorry, God. Thanks for still being there despite everything. Thanks for being my God."

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Enough blogging for one day. Hope you caught my public announcement inside the whole mess up of a post ;)

Sorry about today's emo-ness. Daddy just left NY and i'm alone again :(

Love. Always.

A Series of Unfortunate Events.

2009-01-30T00:33:00.000-08:00

Ahh.. many unfortunate events have struck me pretty life. Therefore, I shall put it in a post :)

OK. First of all, not everything can be posted here coz, you know, public domain, involves other people's feelings and also privacy, etc. etc.

BUT those who know everything that i'm going/ went through and willingly (or rather unwillingly but very much forced to by me) listened and counseled and advised, I love you guys very much and am very grateful that you guys are in my life and have not succumbed to that voice in your head that is begging you to kill me :P After all, love for your daughter, sister, cousin, friend is overrated riiiight? (i realize i might be pushing it.. heh heh)

Event 1.
Came back to NY from Malaysia. Having to say goodbye to family and friends just when i started to settle down and be comfy back home again. Fell very sick the night before my flight. Oh the pain.

Event 2.
Because i was heavily drugged on the plane, i snored worse than a pig with a flu on its death-bed with a crazy itch on its belly that it can't reach. I do not kid.

Event 3.
Mommy, don't kill me! But i got conned by the taxi guy at the airport :P Rugi like $15?

Event 4.
Went apartment hunting with friend. One day, kena pooped on by birds TWICE. Yes. In ONE day. Yes. The SAME day. Good luck you say? I say nooooooooo.

Event 5.
Complications with rent and lease. Lost a lot of money. I shall not go into details, but if you want to know more about it, you can always skype/ msn with me. Oh! I have AIM too! If that's how you roll, we can rock and roll yo! (i DO NOT know why i just said that)

Event 6.
Ok. This one needs a back story for you to fully understand. Well not really. So i have this notebook in which i put all my important papers coz i had to apply for something like an extended visa(?). Anyway, it had like my current visa, a check with a good amount of money on it, passport pics of me(that would be a real catch if anyone stole it. heh), forms and such in it because i did not want to carry a big folder around so i just stuffed everything into me notebook. So i was apartment hunting this one fine day (well, not so fine i would say) when the wind blew as strong as it could and blew my notebook out of my hands! At that point, there was nothing i could do to stop it! I RAN into the middle of the road, risked my life for what i thought was the most important of them all, my visa. Then while i was there, in the middle of crossroads, mind you, it's like the big box in the center of 4 traffic lights, i picked up all the extra papers as well la. Meanwhile, my check and my passport pictures nicely flew to different ends of the block. There was this nice man who helped me chase the check down the block and another nice lady who picked up my passport pictures. I had to run to each one of them, ignoring all rules and traffic lights, to get them. Finally, they all went back into the notebook. Ha! Eh! Don't say that i'm stupid. I can HEAR you! Hmph! Ok. Fin.

There is still Event 7, 8, 9. But i'm too lazy to type out full accounts of it. But yeah, do let me know if you want to lend an ear coz i'm always up for it (in conversation, so skype good. msn chat no good.)

"We should stop mass productions of instant noodles!!"

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God did His "Rachel, here's a cute guy for you to look at." thing again. Boy does He understand me :) :) :) HAHAHAHAHA

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Btw, if you are wondering what my weird statements in quotes are, they are my thoughts on how to save the environment and our health and well-being. And basically, every randomness that might appear in life :) Peace out homie! :P

Loves.

So Yeahh..

2009-01-23T23:13:00.000-08:00

The trip to jersey did not work out. Boo!

But that just gives me more time to apartment hunt and find the perfect one! :)

Happy thoughts! Pink Bananas! Happy thoughts! :)

Ermm.. On a random note.. Well.. Not so random but very rachel..

I want Nasi Lemak.
I think that I need stainless steel teeth so that i can eat more candy.
The more I tell myself not to eat, the more i do.
I'm sorry if i'm ever mean to you. I'm mean to the people i love/like. Got. To. Fix. That.
I wish my hair would smell like some sort of creamy strawberry sweetness or something very Caribbean.
Speaking of something Caribbean, I want to go to a Caribbean island. *cough*Bora Bora*cough*
Sometimes I wish I had a voice in my head narrating my life. Hee!
I want toys and teddy bears! Hmph! I'm just frustrated coz i don't have enough. Don't mind me. (I don't even know why I'm frowning as I type this. Some inner anger is being unleashed. Ha!)
I want ADP friends who are finally in the States to come visit! Haha *hint hint* You KNOW who you are.
Speaking of ADP, I really miss Alexa, Sara & Sarah. Speaking of Sara, I miss Daryll too! Lol.
I never ever used to say "Lol" but i'm starting to because i'm just that easily influenced.
I cannot remember how it was being friends with Lionel Koh but I miss it. Haha.
Random names appearing reminds me of Lee Ken Chung, who, strangely, still reads my blog. Thanks homie! :P
Lee Ken Chung reminds me of Joash Chan who recently got married to May Wong (Mrs Chan now ;)). Congratulations! :)
I can't remember the last time i ate a papaya. Or a honey dew for that matter.
Fruits remind me of Mandarin oranges.
Mandarin oranges reminds me to wish everyone HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! :) :) :)

See, that wasn't without a purpose! And I meant it all from the bottom of my heart.

Loves. (Reminds me of my family and how much i miss and love them and wish i could spend CNY with them)

"Stop Global Warming!!!"

One oF Those Days...

2009-01-21T23:07:00.000-08:00

You know, it's kinda late. And when it's late, I start thinking more crazy than usual. AND i tend to spell my words wrongly, something that i don't intend to do now but we'll see.

Anyway, i was thinking about how funny God is. Why is it that you never get the things you want but when it comes to things that you don't want, you get an abundance of it?

But i guess i should always keep in mind that God is preparing an opportunity for me and me for the opportunity :) I heard this line in church and it keeps me going even when i don't want to.

On a happy note, I'm planning a much needed vacation to jersey! I hope it works out! The planning has already come across some road bumps but i think that if it's carefully planned out and if there is a car in jersey ready for our use, it will be soooo awesome! I know i just came back FROM vacation.. But I've had more stress these 3 weeks than I've had for a long long time. So i deserve it :P hmph!

Why jersey you ask? Coz it's cheap, close by, and NOT New York :) And i've been hearing too many good things about it and i have to see if it lives up to said standards. Heh heh.

So again, i hope it works out! *cross fingers and close eyes tight tight*

Tonight was RockBand night again :) Played this one song so many times that my arms and fingers started to hurt. I was playing the guitar and we were on World Tour so we had to complete that level. I sang some of the songs and Stan was like, "I think i have to ask you to leave." And Janet was like, "Rachel, you're unreal." But, to be honest, i thought i rocked! Like a rockstarrrrrr :) yeah yeahhh!! *shakes head in crazy ecstasy* :P

OkThatsItFromMe! :)

Oh How I Wish.

2009-01-20T09:45:00.000-08:00

I want to be Geum Jan Di.

I want my Goo Joon Pyo. I want him to protect me :) He's so cool! I Love how mean he is but he still has a soft side to him.

I want my Yoon Ji Hoo. I want to dance with him :) He's so cute! I love how he doesn't say much but is very sensitive on the inside.

If only we could combine these 2 and make an alpha male for rachel! Muahahahaha!

And I want those 2 extra good looking boys who come with the package! ;) Hehe

How? :(

AhhhHH!!!

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Yesterday, I was very blessed by God. So here's a shout out to say, "I Love You so so much & Thank You God!!" :) :) :)

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And I rocked out on RockBand! So fun! Someone in Malaysia should get it so that we can play if i ever get back. So fun! :)

I miss Nasi. Lemak. Ayam. Goreng. Village. Park.

OkBye! :P

Smile!

2009-01-10T21:59:00.000-08:00

I have been super stressed since i got back to NY coz i'm back to my world of responsibilities. And me no likey. My vacation didn't feel long enough. Didn't get to spend time with everyone i wanted to. But those that DID spend time with me, I'm really really thankful for you guys and i LOVE you guys so so much. AND you make me smile like an idiot! :) :) :)

It was fun!

Anyway, today was not a very good day. I'm still suffering from jetlag! I didn't sleep for almost 27 hours! Super tired.

But when i stepped out of the door today, it was SNOWING! It totally made the cold bearable :)

After apartment searching, the whole entire day. Going here and there, in the cold. From smelly apartments to neighborhoods where i can get killed in. I would say, it wasn't a successful mission. But the search must go on! :P

I came home, searched online for more apartments, watched a korean drama, and stumbled on the best thing that's happened in the whole entire week! My baby Junsu, playing the piano and singing an old favorite of mine, My Everything :) :) :)

HOT! HoT! HOT!

Pretending to be clever! Tsk Tsk Tsk.

Singing THE song! Yay! <3

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Also want to say, thanks Alexa for all your funny posts. Totally made my day! :)

I miss Malaysia like crazy! :(

Update?

2008-12-29T04:05:00.001-08:00

Hello!

I owe my blog an update! Hehe

I haven't uploaded pictures.. But once i do.. There shall be a pretty post with pretty pictures of pretty people!

Wait for it! Muahahaha

=P

HeLP!

2008-12-20T03:34:00.000-08:00

Need Good Music.

Please recommend.

Thank you.

Smiles! :) :) :)

It's Getting Late.

2008-12-07T22:18:00.000-08:00

Hey World!

This is another nothing-t0-do post.

My blog is starting to get very boring with less and less pictures coz my computer is running out of space and i'm getting lazier and lazier.

I have to wake up at 5am tomorrow. Totally not excited about it.

Oh well, after tomorrow, I can sleep for as 24 hours straight. So whatevs. Hehe! :P

I've been going through a lot lately. But surprisingly, I am still at peace, happy, and loving life! :)

Only at random moments of the day, I will burst into crazy anxiety. But i can just feel God's hands over my heart, calming me down. As if to say, "I got your back!". I know that He does. And that makes me super happy and peaceful.

I'm not going to lie. It's has been an extremely crazy year. One that I am very grateful for though.

I love adventures and being free! That's all I have been doing all year. With a few stumbles, bruises and war scars, I shall be invading 2009 as a whole new person! Just a little wiser but still as happy and excited about life as ever! :) :) :)

Maybe my troubles are a blessing in disguise after all.. Hmm..

I'm glad that I'm doing film :) There's nothing else in the world I can imagine myself doing. Yay!

Feel like saying... : Mustard Seed! Banana Pumpkin Pie! Woot!

My Dreams of Becoming A Hobo, Let's Strike That.

2008-11-20T21:00:00.000-08:00

As many of you know, i've always wanted to become a hobo in NYC. I kid you not. And you know it! :P

Weeeell, I take it back! And let's pray that it never happens to ANYONE!

I was forced to spend a night in the city with no where to go when it was negative 2 degrees!

Let me fill you in with details..

Ok. It started off with me editing at school, knowing that my call time the next day was at 6.45am.. at Grand Central Station because i had to catch a train upstate.

I wanted to leave at 10pm! I promise. But editing got to addicting! I was in the groove~ Hehehe

Soooo.. edit edit edit.. and before i knew it.. it's 2.30AM!!!!

The things that went through my mind:

"WHAT??!"
"I feel like curtsying."
"Should i go home??" (Mind you, I live 1 hour away from school but with public transportation at that hour, I would have ended up reaching home in 2 hours AND on top of that, I would have to wait for the bus for about an hour in waaay too little clothes for negative 2 degrees windy weather.)
"I have too little footage."
"Should i just sleep in the school till 6am?"
"Need sleep."
"My film does not make ANY sense! Gahh!"
"Need food."
"Mom sent me an email on how to lose fats. I should be worried."
"Monkeys. Bananas. Cupcakes."
"Let's do a funny dance!"

So ANYWAY.. My friend was in the edit lab as well and we decided to get food. Went outside. Wind blew. Forget it. I'm not going anywhere tonight.

Friend said, "It's too dangerous to not go home now. I'll stay with you till you go to Grand Central!"

Nice friend. Yay! :) :) :)

So we slept on the couch in the couch in the school. The couch was NOT soft.

BUT.. at 5am.. Mike from the edit lab woke us up and was like.. "What are you guys still doing here?! I have to lock up. You have to go."

Something along those lines. I was too sleepy to coomprehend.

So okay.. We walked out into the blistering cold and got to the subway station and friend and i got on the train to go to Grand Central. 1 hr and 45 mins to call time. Great.

So when we got to Grand Central, we decided to sleep on the floor. So we did.

At 5.35am.. a cop woke us up and..

Cop: You guys catching a train?
Us: Yes
Cop: What time?
Us: 7.18am

Then cop walks away. We go back to sleep.

At 5.45 am.. same cop wakes us up..

Cop: People are coming in. You can't sleep here. Get up!

So we woke up. And friend said, "Rachel. I have to go home."

Not wanting to destroy our friendship, I walked friend to train station and said bye and goodnight and thank you and fluffy dreams and all that jazz.

Then, I went back to the center of Grand Central and went back to sleep. Cop walks by a few times, look at the hobo-rific me, shakes head and walks away.

Summary of things that happened next:

Got a phone call from asha saying that she was gonna be late. Got frustrated. Snap snap. "Hurry please!" Was a little rude. SORRY ASHA!! :(
Got wandering crew members together.
Mune says something ridiculous. YELL something no one would ever comprehend. People stopped and stared. VERY EXTREMELY SORRY MUNE!! :( :(
Tim made joke. I was not amused. Sorry Tim.

And all that happened waay before 7.30am! Wheee!!

Also wanna say that i didn't sleep the night before either. It was about 60 hours of being awake before i went to sleep. Not pleasant. Not pleasant at all.

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So that's it! My adventures in New York! Isn't it fun?

Yeah. No more hobo dreams. WooHoo! :)

Love.

Super Delayed But Must Have Post.

2008-11-19T22:29:00.000-08:00

This is a super delayed birthday post. But here i go!

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On Dec 18th,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXA GOH!!

Hope you had a good one! I'm sorry you fell sick! Boo! :(

I think you had fun though, no? *sheepish grin*

Thanks for being such an awesome life-support and always being there for me! I seriously do not know how I would have survived the past year without you!! :P

Korean obsessions = Love.

Stay awesome and I'll see you in Paris!! Woot Woot!!

*pssssst* update me on stuff soon yeah? <3

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On Nov 20th,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY ONG!!

Sorry i don't have a better picture of you. Hehe. Don't kill me! :P

Thanks for being the awesomest mom in the world and i'm sorry i couldn't do much for your birthday this year! :(

Don't worry, your next one will be kick-ass! Haha

I love you so so so much!! Stay happy and eat some curry in a hurry!! (My brain is not working very well right now. Ha!)

2008-11-15T19:53:00.000-08:00

Please let this work. Please please pretty please.

OK. Time to stop procrastinating and get back to reality. Ah! Bittersweet reality. Why oh why do we have to live with you?! =P

On a happy note, I'm very very very thankful that I have really really good friends here who are like family :) :) :) my chinese brethren.. i love theeeeee! hahahaha

A Mystery.

2008-11-13T20:17:00.000-08:00

I was looking through some pictures I took and I started to marvel at God's greatness.

I love how He is so mysterious in that way. Always only revealing bits and pieces of Himself. And when you least expect Him to, He basks us in His glory. In those moments, we just have to stop for a moment and admire His greatness and wonder. I believe that that makes Him smile as much as it makes us smile.

Blue, Purple, Pink & Orange. All at once!

Images like these, never cease to amaze me :)

I love you too =P

I love how He always surprises me and never fails to supersede my image of Him.

Thought of the day :)

2008-11-11T22:04:00.000-08:00

Honesty is the best policy.

Just thought i'd throw it out there. Ha!

Ok Bye.

I = Sad.

2008-11-10T20:41:00.000-08:00

This deserves a post on my blog.

I lost my pink ring today. It's the cutest thing i've ever owned.

I was just looking at it and admiring it while waiting for the bus today. And my hands were freezing cold so i took off the ring and put it in my pocket so that i could put on my gloves.

I think it didn't go into my pocket and just fell on the floor. Boo!

It's no where to be found now. I must have dropped it.

Ohmigosh! I'm so so so upset :(

Almost.

2008-11-09T21:49:00.000-08:00

It's almost here! It's almost here! It's almost here!

What, you ask?

I can't tell you. But i'm happy as a panda that just got a new bamboo stick because a monkey was playing with it but lost it by getting distracted by a mini cutie sized piggy that was lost because his good looking owner was singing a beautiful song to a beautiful girl and totally forgot about him but just for a milisecond! whee!

I'm THAT happy :) :) :)

You'll find out why in about a month. Ok. Bye!

Rachel Rhymes With Facial!

2008-11-05T12:59:00.000-08:00

This is a "nothing-to-do" post.

I'm super tired coz i'm sick. Boo! And.. Fun Fact.. I have to choose between having my whole body ache like mad or cough like a mad monkey. I chose to let my whole body ache. Why? Coz i can't mix the drugs. Gahh!! Was gagging all night from coughing. Stupid.

Still have to go to school to do Producing work for my friend. Oh the joys of filmmaking. Ha!

Ohkay. Enough self-pitying.

I can't wait till my whole class is done shooting!! Ultimate freedom!! Woot Woot!!

All i can think about for the past few months is Mamak food. I kid you not. Roti Telur, Maggi Tom Yam, Susu Panas, Teh Ais & Teh O Ais Limau. That's what i'm gonna order when i get to step foot in a Mamak store. Oh Bliss :) :) :)

Happy thoughts! Happy Thoughts!

Ooh! Time for my dosage of drugs! Oh what fun.

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Oh yeahh.. Before I sign out,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH TAYYYYYYY!!

I hope you have a really really good one!

I'm so blessed to have known you! Now i can rest assured that my babies have someone to take care of them while i'm wandering on the streets. TeeHee!

I'll see you in Paris? Hahaha

Be good & Take Care!! :) :) :)

Birthday Happy!

2008-11-04T15:21:00.000-08:00

Sara-ra-ra-ra-ra-ra-ra-ra Leong!!

Happy birthday!!

Thanks for bringing so much fun into my life! I love and miss you heaps!

Hope you had a super fun one! And if you had a surprise party, i hope that it is better than the one we gave you! Haha

I can't wait for you to come to NY one day and work in the same industry as me! Heh Heh! Let's see who becomes famous first! Ok?

Have a good one! :) :) :)

Loves.

Another One. Whee!

2008-11-03T11:49:00.000-08:00

Thanks Sarah Tay! :)

Yes. Yet another tag. Love Love Love.

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1. Would you marry for money?
Nope.

2. Have you had braces?
Yes. But Teddy, my puppy, bit my retainers into pieces and i never got new ones. Soooo, my teeth are crooked again :(

3. Could you live without a computer?
Unfortunately and shamefully, no. Hahaha

4. If you could live in a different decade, which would it be?
I really wanna live in Victorian times. But then i would want to be British. Haha. Does that even make sense?

5. Do you drink enough water?
Absolutely not. But i try.. Heh.

6. Do you wear the shoes in the house or take em off?
I HAVE to take them off. Too uncomfortable =P

7. What are you favorite fruits?
This is a tough one. I like ALL fruits except for Jackfruit.

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OK. So i was doing this Tag, but my throat hurts so so bad and my nose is runny and i feel like i'm going to die.

Why am i in such a devastating state you ask?

It's coz i was sleeping without a blanket last night coz i couldn't find one in the pig sty of a room we are sleeping in.

SO there. I think i'm just gonna spend the rest of my LAST day in Bermuda lying down and going, "Oh Gawd! Why??!!!" and enjoy my giant bar of Twix :)

Nyahahahahaha.

Hmm..

2008-10-31T14:10:00.000-07:00

OK. First of all, i'm too lazy to upload pictures. So this would be another post without pictures. But fret not, my good peers. I shall try my best to entertain.

Guess what i did today?! I can totally strike out one of the things i want to do before i die.

Jump of a cliff.

Yay!! I jumped off a cliff!! And i'm proud :)

I need to venture to higher cliffs next time. Oooh! The adrenalin. Sweet.

Bermuda kicks ass! Whee! :) :) :)

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Random things that i would like to say now:

I don't know what rhymes with "Rachel" and that makes me sad :(
Sometimes i don't understand how people can be so mean. Are we really born evil and are taught to be good and civil? Then, i wish that everyone is taught well.
I absolutely LOVE the ocean.
And i absolutely LOVE coconut chocolates and Twix.
My skin is smooth from being in the ocean for so long today :)
Fat = Me
I need to stop eating but i can't stop! What to do? What to doooooo??
God is so amazing for creating the earth. Good job, sir! Loves.
I need to shower soon. I'm dripping sand.
Should i wish that people act differently or should I act differently? I think that latter makes more sense. But it's soooo hard.
I think this list is getting emo. Therefore, i shall stop.

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Salad with Pumpkin = Good.

I'm sooo in the mood for pumpkin all october coz it's Halloween! HuHuHu! (And i'm convinced that i should start laughing using different vowels from now on)

And people need to stop saying that i'm weird. Thank you very much.

I found a little army man today!! Waaaay too cute :) :) :)

Tata.

Bermuda.

2008-10-30T17:26:00.001-07:00

I'm blogging while i'm in Bermuda. Why?

1. I need to push that ugly picture of me down so it wouldn't scare people away when they visit my blog.
2. Everyone is really tired and tomorrow is the first day of Asha's shoot. So we're staying at home and resting today.
3. I need to keep my blog updated? Hehe

OK. Fun Facts about Bermuda:

1. They have the same national flower as Malaysia! It's the Hibiscus. Just in case you didn't know. Hehe.. And they have it in so many different colours too! Beautiful.
2. At this time of the year, it's kinda chilly in Bermuda. Feels like Genting weather.
3. Everything is suuuuuper expensive coz it has to be imported into the country.
4. The ocean water is in so many different shades of blue. It's so so pretty.
5. Random strangers will say "hi" to you on the streets and it's courteous to say "hi" back.
6. ALL the houses are in pastel colors! I love it.

There are actually a lot more but i can't think of anything else right now.

I kicked a giant rock in the ocean today and it started bleeding. The wound looks really cool! Yeeeeah!! TeeHee!

Sometimes i wonder what banana pumpkin pie would taste like.

Loves.

random.

2008-10-24T18:20:00.000-07:00

So i've been out on a lot of thesis shoots and i realized a few things that i would love to do once i graduate.

Of course, ultimately i would like to be a Director. That's the dream. But to stay in the industry, I want to do Sound and Grip. I want to be a Gaffer as well but i haven't had any real experience in that area and it requires a lot of math. Hehehe!

Me and my Boom Operator, Sean :)

These are the crazy dolly tracks on Dean's shoot. I love setting them up! :)

But yeah.. these jobs are hardly ever done by girls. So, it's really competitive. Especially Gripping coz it requires a lot of strength.

But wish me luck!! :)

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Still not done shooting my thesis film. Gawd!

HEhe. Still telling myself that it's gonna work out somehow. Ha!

David Martel.

2008-10-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

Whee!! I finally bought the album that i was looking everywhere for!! And i bought it from the man himself, David Martel!! *happy grin*

I was looking for this album for months and i was even considering just downloading the whole album from iTunes. I don't use iTunes so i don't see the point of doing that. But whatever! I'm happyyyy!! :) :) :)

Nice Album Art! No?

I saw him singing live! And i talked to him!

He's just a random indie music person, just in case you guys are wondering. I found him on MySpace and i totally love his music. So when i saw him, i told him and he was like "Oh my god! That's so random!" and i was like "I knowww!!".

Haha. Ok. Total Bimbotic moment right there. But as you can tell.. I'm excited.

He's an awesome awesome musician/ singer/ composer! And he plays the banjo!! I love the banjo!! Nyahahahaha!! Respect.

And the most awesome thing about him is that he told me that i could burn the CD and pass it on to whoever! That's a real artist right there and it made me respect him even more!!

So yeah.. if anyone wants a copy.. I'll definitely burn you one :)

Just sharing the Martel love. Heh Heh.

Really Good Film.

2008-10-16T16:30:00.000-07:00

William Shakespeare's Romeo + Juliet.

That's the actual title of the film. Haha. I kid you not.

I watched this film like 10 years ago or something and i really liked it. And after a long day of shooting, i saw it at Virgin Records for $10! So i decided to buy it and watch it :) it was the best decision i made all day! hehehe

Even though i watched it a really long time ago, i still remember most of it. The whole film is in Shakespearean English and it's so fun to watch. And after being in film school for as long as i have, i really appreciate it so much more now.

The performances were so so so good. And Leornado DiCaprio was at such a good-looking stage of his life too! ;) And Claire Danes was young and beautiful. She still is now. Heh.

And i loved how all the cuts were so quick and it really kept you at the edge of your seat the whole time.! And the director, Baz Luhrmann, used a lot of colors in his film, which i really really liked. And the way he utilized the shot sizes was like pure genius!

Haha! I'm like giving a freaking movie review. =P

I totally recommend everyone to go and buy it and watch it! It's such a tragic ending. But it's very interesting to watch!! And again, very very good performances. I hardly ever comment about performances, so you guys should trust me on this one.. ;)

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As you can tell, i'm only posting this up for the sake of blogging. Heh Heh

Will blog again when i have time, i'm just too tired and lazy to do it now. I'm on like all my classmate's shoots and it's totally wearing me out.

My own shoot did not go so well. Boo! :(

I'm not done shooting, but i have a feeling that it will all work out somehow :) :) :)

Loves.

Mirotic.

2008-10-02T19:37:00.000-07:00

This is so not the right time to do this but i just had to share the happiness!

My DongBang boys are backkkk! Sexier and more beautiful than everrr!! With a better song than Purple Line!! Mirotic!! Woot Woot!!

Can't wait for my thesis shoot to end so that i can start stalking them again! Wheeeeee :)

A Glimpse of Me.

2008-09-26T14:41:00.001-07:00

I wrote an entry in my Journal today. Yes. I have a Journal. I'm a nerd. It's how i communicate with God and i've been very blessed and it kinda opens my eyes to His greatness. I totally encourage everyone to do it! :)

Anyway, i re-read it and i felt that i should post up a small portion of it here. Just a small bit ;)

Dear God,

I just can’t believe how amazing you are. How humble and gracious.

“I know you love me.” It’s from a song. And it hit me, 87% of the time, I really don’t know if you love me. Of course, I understand your love but it’s all only in theory. But then again, in the little moments in life when I experience what I call “The Epiphany”, you are really magnified and wonderful and amazing.

I don’t understand you and I don’t think that I ever will. Maybe somehow, there is beauty in that. You amaze me but yet I don’t know how. You leave me to bring me home. You hurt me to cure me. You make me foolish to give me wisdom. That’s how beautiful you are.

Your love never ends and never fails. Your wisdom and your ways are beyond comprehension. I know you will move mountains for me.

I feel foolish to have ever faltered or doubted you. I feel ashamed that sometimes I don’t trust your love. And I feel sorry that each time I do these things, it breaks your heart.

Ok. So that was it. I hope it encouraged you like it encouraged me :)

Have a nice day!

Falling Slowly.

2008-09-24T22:13:00.000-07:00

Omg! I looooove HyunJoong & HwangBo! You guys won't know what i'm talking about but it's like a Korean Reality TV kinda show where celebrities are like paired up and they have to pretend that they are a married couple. The show is called "We Got Married". And you get to see all the sweet things the "husbands" will do for the "wives". It's so sweeeeeeeet! Makes me feel like getting married to a stranger! Hahahaha.

Anyway, HyunJoong sang this song for HwangBo. I used to love love love this song. It was like on loop in my playlist. Hehehe. The lyrics are so extremely sweet. So.. random stranger.. hello there! If you want to marry me, you know what to do ;)

Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

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Glen Hansard was at NYFA! He just graduated when i got there! I got to see him a few times.. and he even talked to me once and i didn't know who he was so i was like kinda rude. Heh. It was a rough day. But yeahh.. still cool.. hehehe

And i dunno why i keep blogging about stupid random stuff. Gotta stop. Heh

I is super sleepy now. Gotta sleep. Nite nite.

Feed my cbox plz. I think he is hungry :(

Sarah-fied..?

2008-09-23T19:57:00.000-07:00

Is the title a requirement for the tag? Haha! I know it's not but i'm not gonna title it "I Love Tags!" anymore. Too many of that. Hehe. So once again, Sarah oh-so-wonderful Tay tagged me again! Whee! :) Double tagged by Alexa oh-so-cranky-at-the-moment Goh! Thanks guys! Me love you muchos! Heh

So here goes nothing!!

Name: Rachel Ong Wei Kim

Sisters: 1 and only Alina Ong Wei Lynn. Don't our names match very well?

Brothers: None. But i would LOVE to have one. Hehe

Shoe size: 8 or 9

Height: 164cm

Where do you live: New York City

Have you ever..

Been on a plane: Yesh!

Swam in the ocean: Nope but I will when i get to Bora Bora! Haha

Fallen asleep at school: Me? Nooooo. Okay people. You can stop rolling your eyes now. Yes of course i've fallen asleep in school! What type of silly question is this? Bleah.

Broken someone's heart: I don't think so. I hope not. Being heart-broken is painful. Boo heart breaks.

Fell off your chair: Yes. As many have witnessed. That's how the brain damage came about.

Saved e-mails: Yesssssss :)

What is your room like: Right now, messy! Give me a month, and it will be neat and clean again! Promise.

Do you..

Believe in love at first sight: Yes :) But it depends what your definition of love is. heh heh heh

Who was / were the last person(s)..

You danced with: Anthony. Ska dance! Ska ska ska! Hehe

Last made you smile: God and his humor. Funny dude. Funny dude indeed. =P

Today did you..

Talk to someone you like: Always. I only talk to people that I like. Muahahahaha!

Kissed anyone: Nope.

Get sick: Does a headache count?

Talk to an ex: Nope.

Miss someone: Yes indeed :)

Eat: Yes! Yes! Yes! =P

Random..

Is there a person who is on your mind now: Yes.

Do you want children: Hmm.. depends.

Do you like your hand-writing: Sometimes. Not really. But when i do, i'll admire it for a good long time.

Are your toe nails painted: Unfortunately not. Sad. Who wants to paint them for me? Hehe

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: My malaysian bed counted? Heh.. Or else i want a princess' bed.

When did you cry last: Not long ago. I'm not giving out time frames! Hahahaha

Are you a friendly person: Haha! Depends.

Where is the person you have feelings for right now: He's everywhere!! Bahh! Scared? He's right next to you as you read this! Muahahaha

Have you ever crawled through a window: Oh of course! Have you not? It's the most joy you can experience! I kid you not. All the anxiety and excitement of not knowing whether you can make it through. And then, "Bloop!" You're on the other side! It's great.

Can you handle the truth: I guess so. If it hurts, it takes a long long time. But if it's about me looking ugly or not. I'll be fine. Don't worry.

Who was the last person you cried in front of: Addison my blue teddy. And Germ my pink pillow.

How many people can you say you've really love: Just a few, i suppose. But then again, it depends on what kind of love you're talking about.

Do you eat healthy: I try. I try.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: This question is irrelevent. Haha

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: Yes. Harsh words do break me :(

Are you loud or quiet most of the time: Quiet i guess. But suuuuuper loud when i'm excited/ happy.

Are you confident: Sometimes.

Are you controlling: Hmm.. don't think so.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago -

Swimming a lot.
Going for PTS night classes where i made most of my closest friends now :)
Moving to Kelana Jaya. It was a sad time for me.
Being naughty.
Watching a whole lot of cartoons?

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire -

Buy a house in NYC.
Direct a film.
Buy things for my parents.
Buy things for people I love.
Start a charity.

5 jobs I've had -

Promoter
Receptionist
Customer Service Assistant
Retail
Hostess

5 people I tag -

Alina
Helena
Jo
Leann
Sandra

Woot! I'm done! Time to take a shower. Good night, world! Don't miss me too much! :)

Things I Feel Like Doing...

2008-09-20T11:24:00.000-07:00

And I NEED these things to be sane.. HooHooHoo..

Jumping into someone's arms. Kim Junsu's preferably. Or maybe Wang Lee Hom? Park YooChun? Jung YunHo? Anyone? HehHeh
*Edit* I'm jumping into God's arms! It's the safest and warmest place to be. Better than any good-looking boy :)
Done.

Absolut Raspberry = Love.
*Edit* Uhh.. Still waiting for someone to give me the ka-ching! $$$
*Wink Wink*

I and You.

2008-09-20T11:13:00.000-07:00

I Funny? Noooooo. You Funny. You Funny.

Ok. You can stop now.
Stop i said. Stop. Stop. Stop!
Oh no. I think i have mental illness.

Unrequited Love.

2008-09-18T18:33:00.000-07:00

I've been blogging waaaay too much. But I found something worth blogging about today. Don't worry.. It's not nonsense like Bunnies or Smelly Socks.

I was doing research for my Thesis and I found some really cool stuff about unrequited love that i thought i should blog about. Hehe

Quote from a Japanese poet, Ōtomo no Yakamochi:

"Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there."

Verse from Abraham Cowley:

"A mighty pain to love it is,

And 'tis a pain that pain to miss;

But of all pains, the greatest pain

It is to love, but love in vain."

Poem by Robert Burns:

"Anna, thy charms my bosom fire,

And waste my soul with care;

But ah! how bootless to admire,

When fated to despair!

Yet in thy presence, lovely Fair,

To hope may be forgiven;

For sure 'twere impious to despair

So much in sight of heaven."

TeeHee! Isn't it beautiful and sweet yet extremely sad at the same time?

Hope you enjoyed another one of my random nonsense! :)

Smelly Socks.

2008-09-17T18:34:00.000-07:00

So.. I was really bored and stressed coz i can't think of any new ideas for my Thesis Film. So i decided to blog. Hehehe!

I was thinking about what i should blog about. Purple pigs? Orange Pandas? Pink Lions?

Then it hit me like a cannonball! I should blog about smelly socks! Absolutely brilliant.

You know.. Sometimes when there's a party and the weather is so hot and humid, the moment everyone takes off their shoes, especially when it is done simultaneously, you get that stench.

That crazy "Who farted and burped after eating Durian??!!" stench.

It's smelly socks! I tell you.. Those things can kill. You know what we need? A special spray. A spray or a gel that can get rid of the smell.

Why did God create us this way? So that the world will be a more interesting place? Hmm.. Maybe it's just so that when we have nothing to do.. we can blog about it! Awesome.

But not to worry, people with smelly feet! It's not as bad as having hairy ears coz no one can pinpoint you!! Muahahaha!! (no offense to people with hairy ears. you guys are very special. it is rare.)

So that's all i have to say.

Tata for now. Or as Tigger likes to say, "TTFN!!"

Seven Bunnies Are Funnier Than One Bunny.

2008-09-15T19:57:00.000-07:00

Bunnies are so cute. Don't you think?

And the best thing is.. They're funny too!

Just imagine.. A little bunny.. Looking to the right and to the left. "Bop Bop", its head goes. And then "Sniff Sniff", its tiny pink nose twitters.

And with a giant leap of faith, the bunny jumps! "Boink Boink Boink", it goes! With the wind blowing by it's long ears. Then Boop! There is a sparkle in the bunny's eyes! Its eyes are wide open in shock!

It waits.

Then it looks around. When it is certain that no one is watching, it giggles because the wind in its ears was too ticklish to handle.

A lady in a red dress and red heels walks by.

The bunny uses its paws(?) to cover its mouth. "Oh nooo, I cannot be seen laughing!" it thinks to itself.

The lady bends over.

"Why look at that! What a cute bunny!!" and squeals in excitement.

Bunny rolls its eyes and bounces away.

Now..... imagine that times SEVEN!! Muahahahaha!!

Hilarious.

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Haha! There is really no point to this post except to prove to the world that i'm a little crazy and weird =P

I'm really tired. Can I not be? Please.

Another One.

2008-09-12T20:38:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys! In the mood for procrastinating. So i'm doing yet another Tag. Heh Heh. This time, Thanks Ms Leann! (Miss you like crazy! Don't be so stressed, okay? :))

6 Things I'm Passionate About:
.God
.Film
.Family
.Friends
.Adventures
.Fun!

6 Things I Say Too Often:
.Serious?
.OhMyGawd!
.Heh Heh
.Yay!
.Sorry!
.That's craaaaazy!

6 Books I've Read Recently :
.Searching For God Knows What (Excellent Read! Highly Recommended!)
.The Symposium (Working on it. Funny!)
.Desire (Gooooood if you're a fan of John Eldredge)
.Visual Story (I'm on the 5th page. Heh.)
.Sense&Sensibility (Kept reading the same chapter over and over again. Don't know why.)
.Sacred Romance (Working on it. Boring. No offense.)

Songs That I Can Listen To Again and Again:
.Cannonball by Damien Rice
.My Heaven Said by Wilber Pan
.Every New Day by Five Iron Frenzy
.Zhuan Ji by Wilber Pan
.Any Clazziquai Song
.Any Jay Chou Song
.The Hush Sound is always good :)
.This list can go on but i'm going to stop right after i say Dave Martel. Dave Martel.

Things I Learned In The Past Year:
.I absolutely LOVE Film (Thank you, God!)
.Directing
.Camera
.Sound
.Lights
.Grip

6 Bloggers I Tag:
.Sarah
.Alexa
.Sara
.Alina
.Jojo
.Shell

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On a different note.. I feel like a Margarita!!

*sigh* Why must i be 21 to buy drinks here in NY??!! How frustrating!! >.< Some places sell Margaritas for $5! I kid you not. But they always check ID. Boo!

This is the crazy ska dance i was talking about. It really looks like that when you start dancing! Fun Fun Fun!! :)

Well, that's all the randomness in me for today.

Until next time, world!!

*Hugs&Kisses*

I Love Tags!

2008-09-11T08:58:00.000-07:00

Yes. As if i don't say it enough. Heh. Thanks Ms Sarah Tay!! Whee!! =)

It's about marriage though. Eek!

1. At what age you wish to marry?
Before 30...?

2. Are you straight?
I would like to think so ;)

3. Do you smoke?
No.. And you can't make me!!! =P

4. What are the things that interest you now?
Ska Dance! "We Got Married", the TV Show.. Awesome Awesome!! (Sarah Tay, you should watch it!! Haha)

5. List out two things that you'd like to do now.
Ska Dance! Watch the latest episode "We Got Married"!! Randomly burst out in song!! Oops! Listed 3 things!

6. How old are you?
19

7. What is the latest thing you bought with your own money?
Food.

8. Do you believe in love at first sight ?
Err.. Do you know who you're asking?! Of course i do!! But then when i get to know the person and he sucks.. I'll get over it! Haha.. It's not really love.. but i do have the urge marry every single good-looking celebrity.

9. Currently into?
Refer to Question 4.

10. Getting married is going to heaven or grave?
Ugh. Heaven i guess. Why would a person want to get married if it's going to the grave. But yeahh.. I guess constant companionship is pretty nice :)

11. How many kids do you want?
2-3 i guess. Adopted maybe. Heh heh.

12. Are you in love?
Can't say that i am.

13. Where is the latest restaurant you have dinner?
Big Daddy's! It's not really a restaurant. More like a diner. But for Malaysian standards, it's a restaurant. heh.

14. Name the latest book you bought?
Visual Story. I think.

15. Do you believe in open book test?
No. What's the point then? But i DO believe in it when i did not study the night before. Heh Heh.

16. Chocolate or Strawberry?
Right now.. Strawberry. Coz i just had an overload of chocolate. Ask me again later, it'll probably be chocolate. =P

17. Name the first person that comes into your mind now.
Alex from Clazziquai. (My ideal husband from "We Got Married")

18. The most exciting place you want to go?
Bora Bora! I'm hoping that if I say it enough, it might actually come true. Hahaha!

19. Which quality is more important in a lover. Looks or personality?
Personality!

20. What kind of wedding do you want?
A special one. Definitely outdoors! Maybe have some wild animals there, like lions and pandas. And have people juggling fire on the side and eating swords or whatever. And all the guests should be wearing Red and/ or White. And ushering in the guests, are monkeys who will hand everyone a Red Rose.

Hahaha! I totally made that up! >.<>

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Ooh that's it for the Tag! Niceee. Need to stop procrastinating and get some work done. Bye!

Bye Bye, My Baby.

2008-09-03T10:36:00.000-07:00

Last year, around this time, I met 2 fabulous people who loved food as much as i do. We nicknamed ourselves after tastes. I think you should understand how much we LOVE food.

Anyway, after many tiring days in college and crazy moments, we came up with the most fantastic plan! (Alexa, i still remember our conversation about it in the noodle shop! Hahaha)

That is how we gave birth to our baby, Food Busters! It's s food club, we go around town as a big group to look for yummy yummy food.

We had such big plans for the club. We even wanted to go to Penang for food! *Sigh*
We wanted T-shirts. That's how much we loved the club.

Our promotional sign.

Almost 20 people showed up for our first outing!

We had Pan Mee!! :)

This was the 2nd outing where only 4 people showed up.
2 of which were the presidents of the club -.-
We even got lost on the way there. Heh.

Our Haraboji eating Pan Mee for the first time!

This was the very LAST outing. About 10 people.
Not bad. I took an extra long lunch break from work to be part of it. :)

*Sigh* Now.. Our baby is being closed down because we are being scattered all around the world. Boo-Hoo! We killed our baby! Sorry, Mr Loh for letting you down! We were his 3 Musketeers.. Hehehe.. I feel so bad for disappointing him!! He had so much faith in us!!

Anyways.. I just realized that we were in the same classes for only ONE semester. Doesn't it feel longer than that?! Crazyness.

I miss you nonsense women!

We shall meet in Paris!! Muahahahaha!! =P

And Joash, videographer for Food Busters, please send the stuff to Alexa! She's gonna cry!
*whispers* you lost it, didn't you? heh heh heh

Cool Analogy.

2008-08-27T16:20:00.000-07:00

You guys should know how i'm a great believer of doing what you feel like doing. And making the choices you need to make to be happy. Yada. Yada.

But you know what i really hate?

People that abuse their free will in the expense of another person's emotions.

Just so you guys know what i'm talking about.. I came up with an analogy. whee! :)

Here goes..

I really hate it when.. Say.. You're at a party and there's only one piece of banana kaya pizza (you know, the super yummy one that is only available in Domino's Malaysia? *yum yum yum*) left in a box. And you know that there's someone who really wanted to eat it all night. I mean the person has been talking about eating that banana kaya pizza ALL night. And then, all of a sudden, you feel like eating that banana kaya pizza. And you just take it, all the while, knowing that this other person wants to eat that banana kaya pizza real real bad. And you just take it.

What would the other person feel? Coz i love food and my banana kaya pizzas, I'll tell you for a fact that I'll be superly extremely upset. I'm not kidding.

Take that analogy and replace it with item-of-desire. And if you were the one who was losing out, wouldn't you be upset?

But maybe not everyone feels that way. But i really really hate people like the banana-kaya-pizza-stealer. And that's saying a lot because i don't hate people. I just dislike them.

Sweet analogy, huh? :) :) :)

Woot!!

2008-08-26T17:34:00.000-07:00

Hello people!!

Guess what?! I set a personal record today!! I ran 5 rounds around the big park behind my house!! whee!! According to my phone.. I ran about 9km!! Muahahahaha!!

Could be better if i was in Malaysia though. I'm out of stamina coz i haven't exercised in so long! Boo!

Maybe i could run 5 rounds today coz it's summer and the weather is super nice. But i tried running in winter and in spring.. and i got out of breath like after 3 rounds or so..

Seeing that I haven't ran in a long long time.. I'm gonna be so so sore in a few hours.. >.< But i'm still happy!! :D

Haha.. Look at me.. Examining my exercise and all.. I'm just THAT bored sometime.. hee!

To make the day even more fruitful and fulfilling.. I cut my toe nails, ate a plum, and i'm gonna do a tag!! muahahahaha! Thanks SaraH!!! :D

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1. Do you have secrets?
Of course! Do you not have secrets? Hmm? Hmm? Heh.

2. If you'd have a dream come true, what would it be?
To direct a huge budget feature film :)

3. Do you believe in platonic relationships?
Ooh.. definitely! But i definitely do not like being in the gray area. If you get what i mean. Hehe

4. Which is more blessed - to love or be loved?
Hmm.. This is hard. But i'm going for to be loved :)

5. How could you see yourself in 10 years time?
Working. Enjoying what i do. Happy :)

6. What do you think of the person who tagged you?
Sarah. Fun, sweet, shopaholic, nice, awesome :) Babysitter of my hobo babies.

7. Would you give your all in a relationship?
Of course. I wouldn't be in one if i couldn't be bothered. Hence, maybe i won't ever be in one. Heh heh.

8. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?

As many people have said, you can forgive but you can never forget.
I'll definitely forgive. And i'll "forget" by never mentioning the horrible thing ever again.

9. Where is the one place you'd really like to travel to?
Bora Bora!

10. What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
Depends on the reason of jealousy. But most probably i'll be able to relate. So it's okay :)

11. What things would be the hardest for you to give up on?
God and candy. But I'll give up candy for God. It's all good :)

12. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
Single and rich. It doesn't say for the rest of my life.. I can be single and rich and find another single and rich... aaaand then.. get married! muahahaha! Am i a genius or what? =P

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Phew! Long post! I'm proud :)

Loves.

Post De-emo-fied.

2008-08-25T17:13:00.000-07:00

I learned how to blog in chinese! Aren't I cool? eh? EhHh?? Hehehehe

Smiles for everyone!! :) :) :)

VBS

2008-08-24T18:57:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer: I'm too lazy to upload pics today. I will upload when i'm less lazy :)

So last week the church had Vacation Bible School (VBS) for kids in the neighborhood. It was a week long but i only got to help out for 2 days coz i only had 2 days off from school that week. It was a crazy week.

Anyway, it was so so much fun getting to play with those kids. They have so much energy. There were like 56 of them, mind you. It was crazy.

On one of the days i was there, i was in charge of arts and crafts. So i had to teach all of them how to make a bookmark. And all of a sudden, I'm the art teacher. Haha. They were so cute about it. About 10 of them came up to me and was like, "Rachel Rachel! Are you the art teacher?" And i didn't want to disappoint them so i was like, "Sure" :)

Hmm.. What else?

On the last day, we had like lots of games and stuff and this little girl, her name was Jenny, asked me to play with her. And she was so cute about it. All the staff members didn't want to let me play coz i was a staff member too but Jenny would be like yelling "Let Rachel playyyyy!!!" She's so cute! And the staff were like giving me dirty looks! Hahaha

And what really touched me was that at the end of the day, Jenny gave me a hug and was like "Rachel, I love you!" I was like... "Awwwwww!!!!" I didn't say that but i thought it. =P And she shared the prize she won with me. She's so adorable.

Another kid that was really cute was Berry. He looks super blur but he's so adorable! And he's really good at drawing too! I have a crush on him. I kid you not.

Ahhhh.. I love kids! :)

OK.. Tata for now.. Will post pics when i remeber. Heehee!

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PS. Ehh.. People! 我失戀了... This time is for real. Hehe. But i'm happy at the same time. So it's all good. Loves :)

I are stressed.

2008-08-14T17:38:00.000-07:00

People! I'm so dead!

I'm not done writing my script!! How? How??

I'm shooting on the 6th of Oct!! How? How??

Help me Help me Help me!!

I wanna go back to Malaysiaaaaaaaa!! Boo-Hoo!!

Tribute.

2008-08-13T17:09:00.000-07:00

I've been tagged! Thanks Sarah!!
Reason to procrastinate.. Whee!!

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a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
d. Put any comments in the brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.

The questions:

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?”
Remember - DBSK
[huh? doesn't make sense.. heh..]

2. How would you describe yourself?
I'm not worthy - Jay Chou
[ouch! i don't feel that way at all :( ]

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Bo Go Ship Da (I miss you) - Kim Bum Soo
[uhh.. sure..]

4. How do you feel today?
City Traffic Puzzle - The Hush Sound
[Hmm.. Perhaps perhaps.. hehe]

5. What is your life’s purpose?
No One - Alicia Keys
[Grrreeaat.. *rolls eyes* hehe]

6. What is your motto?
Everlasting God - Chris Tomlin
[Finally! We've got a winner!]

7. What do your friends think of you?
London Bridge - Fergie
[Really, guys? Really?]

8. What do you think of your parents?
Silence Me - Jeremy Camp
[HAHAHAHAHA!!]

9. What do you think about very often?
Refiner's Fire
[Ehhh.. maaaybe.. hehe]

10. What is 2+2?
Fashion Zombies!! - The Aquabats
[Hahahaha.. This is funny!]

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Midnight Bottle - Colbie Callait
[Hey.. That's pretty trueee.. heh]

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Second Chance - Faber Drive
[Uhh.. great.. heh.. it's true which makes it sad :( ]

13. What is your life?
Feelings Show - Colbie Callait
[True. Too many Colbie Callait songs weii.. I shy]

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Wu Tiao Jian Wei Ni (Err.. No Requirements(?) For You.. Haha.. Stupid translation) - Fish Leong
[Really weird.. but the translation made me laugh! Hahaha]

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Easily Affected - Fergie
[Yerrr.. It's Trueeeeee :( hahahahaha]

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
If I never - Maroon 5
[I don't want.]

17. What will they play at your funeral?
How Gee - Big Bang
[Definitely! Break it down at my funeral, yo! Hahaha]

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Promiscuous Girl - Nelly Furtado & Timbaland
[Suuuuuure.]

19. What is your biggest fear?
Life Goes On - Elisa
[No it's not! I like my life to go on! Really!]

20. What is your biggest secret?
Gold Rush - Tekken 5
[OMG. You guys found out! My biggest secret is that i have a Tekken 5 song on my playlist! hehe]

21. What will you post this as?
Tribute - Tenacious D
[Well.. that explains my title ;) ]

22. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Mocha - Casker
[Hey.. That's pretty sexy.. =P ]

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Okayy.. I'm tagging.. Ally, Sheryl, Jo, Leann, Helena, Shamay, Lin-dy.. and everyone who wants to do it.. *wink wink*

Loves.

Boo Hoo!

2008-08-07T00:08:00.000-07:00

I was looking through college pictures.. And I just wanted to say...

I MISS YOU GUYS!!! :(

Hehe.. That's all. No pics.

=P

New Hairstyle

2008-07-31T18:22:00.000-07:00

I got a haircut! whee! :)

And i dyed it too! The bottom is red.. but you can't see it in this pic..

ANd OMG!! Guess what?!

I didn't know must tip like at least 15% to the hair stylist.. So i only gave like 10% and i feel so so soooooo bad! Coz my hairstylist was really really good! :(

Don't know if i should ever go back.. So malu.. >.<

Teddy.

2008-07-29T15:04:00.000-07:00

I woke up today from a phone call from Alina super early in the morning.

I felt like I didn't get any sleep the whole night and I almost did not pick up the call at all. Now I wish that I didn't. :(

She told me that Teddy died. He got bit by a giant dog and 5 minutes later, he stopped breathing.
...

I couldn't stop crying even after an hour I put down the phone.

...

I miss Teddy. :'(

I miss how he's always so happy to see me when I come home from anywhere. Even if i come home at 4 in the morning, he would sleepily walk out from wherever he is, to greet me.

I miss how he was so smart and learnt so many tricks so quickly. I even miss how hyper he is all the time.

I miss holding him and snuggling with him. I miss playing with him.

I missed him so much when I came here. Now, I'm never gonna see him ever again. I need to hug him :(

...

God, please let there be a doggy heaven. Please.

To Dean...

2008-07-28T17:54:00.000-07:00

DEAN!

STOP READING MY BLOG! I'M SERIOUS!

HA! Just kidding! =P

I'm sorry for saying mean things about you on my blog.. :)

Friends?

Hehe.. =D

Ok people! Disclaimer: Dean is awesome and nice! He is not mean! He probably hates asians but that's it! I swear.. Hehe.. :)

Tagged! :)

2008-07-25T21:12:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. Very time consuming! And very hard to answer.. Hehe.. But Funn!! Thanks Alexa! :)

1. Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation

2. Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

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1. The age you’ll be on your next birthday:

The Big Two "O" Babyyy!! Heh

2. A place you’d like to travel to:

Bora Bora!! Isn't it beautiful?! *sigh*

3. Your favourite place:

Anywhere i can be by myself, away from the world, just for a while. :)

4. Your favourite food:

Sushi! Of course..

Tom Yam Goong! Ahh~ I miss eating it! :(

5. Your favourite pet:

Toy Poodle. Just like my baby, Teddy. Hehe

I always wanted a Pug. I don't care what anyone says.. They're the cutest things ever!

6. Your favourite colour combination:

Pink & Green :)

7. Your favourite piece of clothing:

Loose, Plain T-Shirts.. They're so comfortable and they look good! hehe

Cargo Shorts

8. Your all-time favourite song:

I'm crapping on this one. But i chose White Flag by Dido. Hehe

9. Your favourite TV show:

The OC! Not a lot of people are with me on this.. But it's awesome!

10. First name of your significant other/crush:

My significant other.. Hehe..

11. The town in which you live:

NYC

12. Your screen name/nickname:

I typed in "raycheerache". This picture came up! I kid you not.

13. Your first job:

Receptionist. So boring! :(

14. Your dream job:

Director! :)

15. A bad habit you have:

Procrastinating. That's why i'm doing this Tag.. Hahaha

16. Your worst fear:

Being absolutely alone.

17. The one thing you’d like to do before you die:

Bungee Jumping

Sky Diving

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Cool! I'm done.. hehe

I'm gonna Tag..

Alina, Sheryl, Helena, Jo & Leann!

The Past Week :)

2008-07-23T18:19:00.000-07:00

BLOCK PARTY.

The church had a block party on saturday. It's sort of a mini carnival thingy where people get to play games for free and they get free food while the church members performed on stage and stuff like that.

It was really fun! Too much to say.. So here's a picture spam of what happened. Hehe

We went to church like super early to set everything up. I helped out with the balloons. :)

Ta-Da!! Our wonderful creation. Mary is a genius for organizing the balloons!

The band started practising early as well.

This was one of the games. Go figure.

Highlight of the day: Cotton candy!

Cotton candy machine

Cotton Candy Crewww!! Whee!

Me, making the cotton candy. Tee-Hee!

Pastor Jason & Me

The English Service performance

See how many people came! :)

That's Daniel. Taking a picture of me taking a picture of him. Or vice versa. Ah-ha! HEhe.. Got your brains wrecked over that one huh? =P

PRODUCTION WORKSHOP.

Today was like the 2nd production workshop we've had with the SRII camera. It's our last one too! I dunno whether to be sad or happy. Anyway, don't think anyone will care/ know what i'm talking about.

Dean Smith (there are 2 Deans in my class) was the director and I was the Director of Photography aka Cameraman. Whee! That's the best job everrrr!! hehehe

OK.. Time for.. Picture Spammmm!! =P

Janek was my Assistant Camera (AC). He's awesome! :)

Mune and Asha fooling around with the camera.

Me on the Spider Dolly! Muahahahaha..

After taking like 5 rehearsals and 5 shots on the spider dolly.. Not so fun anymore.. Even when nobody is moving, I still feel my head moving.! Heh..

Last shot of the day. Phew!

The Sound Crew.

Omg!! Guess what happpened at the end of the day that made me reeeeaaally upset?! I was like taking pictures and stuff coz like.. you know.. i like doing that and Dean said.. "Hey Rachel, You're really living up to the Asian reputation, huh?"

I was like...... OMG! OUchhhh! Am i really thaaaaat asian?! Geez.

I guess I am. I like being asian. But don't categorize me!!! Gawwwwd! So annoying. Still love him though. But gahhh!

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Wahhhhh.. I blogged! Hehehe.. aren't you guys proud of me? huh? huh? =P

It's just coz i'm procrastinating from doing my thesis script.. >.<

Boo-Hoooo! I miss everyone back home!

Love!! :)

Happenings.

2008-07-10T10:35:00.000-07:00

Happenings. Happenings.

Here goes..

Summer is hereeeee.. and what do we do in summer? Have picnics!!

Buffet picnic? I don't know what to call it. hehe

The Quah siblings! Don't they look alike? heh

After eating, we went canoe-ing!

Whee! Don't i look cool?! hehe

The 3 of us again. heh

After canoe-ing, when we're all wet and gross and Stan lost his underpants! hehe

Then we went to play

Well.. Not really. hehehe

Ok.. too lazy to post more pics. Sorry. =P

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And i saw the Gay Pride Parade! Boy, are they a bunch of happy people! It was fun to watch! Heee!

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Sebastian left. :(

Booo-Hoooo!

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And then.. summer fun again!

BBQ at Candice & June's! :)

Jacob thought he looked cool. Hehe

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And Anthony made a Tako!

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So that's it.

Proof that i'm alive.

Love you guys! :)

Tagged.

2008-06-28T19:31:00.000-07:00

Well, since i'm procrastinating.. Might as well do this tag.. Hehehe.. Tagged by Leann btw.. Thank you! :)

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20 Things I Want To Do Before I Die

1. Read the Bible cover to cover.

2. Direct at least 7 successful feature films. (ambitious much? yes i am. =P)

3. Write a song. Or 2? Hehe

4. Travel around the world.

5. Fall in Love.

6. Learn as many languages as possible. (Perhaps, alexa, you would like to join me? hehe)

7. Be part of at least ONE romantic cliche.

8. Be a Director of Photography.

9. Truly make a difference in another person's life.

10. Sky Diving.

11. Climb a mountain.

12. Buy nice things for my parents. And (maybe) sister.

13. Write my eulogy. Yes. For myself. To myself. By myself. :)

14. Dance. Dance. Dance.

15. Make a lot of money doing something i love.

16. Loving the people in my life as best as i can.

17. Be an encourager and friend to those in need.

18. Sleep under the sky. On a green field. In a foreign country.

19. Get a tattoo.

20. Get married. (Ha! You guys thought this would never come, right? right? Hehe.. Yes.. I do wanna get married.. and have kids! *gasp!* hahahaha)

PoN and Zi

2008-06-26T09:00:00.000-07:00

Just because they are so cute. And i'm a little sad. Hehehe

Funny Funny God.

2008-06-05T15:36:00.000-07:00

Wow. I have like 10,000 things to blog about but absolutely no time.

But i really have to tell this really interesting story that happened on the subway yesterday.

I saw a really really good-looking guy.

Yes. That's it. Nothing happened. Just a really good-looking guy. Hahaha! Ok.. before you roll your eyes and decide not to be my friend anymore, let me explain.

It's like this.. I was like feeling very guilty and frustrated with myself for the past 2 weeks or so because i sort of totally shut God out of my life. I didn't make time for Him and i doubt i prayed more than 2 times in those 2 weeks. So yeah, frustration frustration.

But yesterday, when i saw the good-looking guy.. I was like.. "Wow, God. Good job! What a beautiful person!" Hahahaha! It really cheered me up so much! I don't even know why. And the whole day yesterday i was so stressed out by pre-production stuff that i was really like.. Gahhh!!

So yeah.. the guy is THAT good-looking. And he was in the train for soooo long. I got out before him. But i had to surpress my laughter the whole way to my station. Coz i kept thinking about it and i kept laughing to myself. People were staring.

BUT there was this other guy who was sitting across from me.. He was listening to music and then he started crying like mad. So people were staring at him too. Hahahaha!

Don't you think that God is so humorous sometimes? He really really knows how to cheer me up! And that's so freaking awesome!

And i think that the people who knows me very well will agree. ;)

i'm alive!!

2008-05-26T21:09:00.000-07:00

Ok.. Here's the thing.

I'm too lazy to put up any pictures but i'm gonna blog anyways because a lot of people seem to think that i have died or have simply fallen off the face of the earth!

Well.. What has been happening to me? I've been busy busy busy. As usual.

But i had the weekend off! Whee! Good times. Good times.

I went to Jersey today for yet another barbeque, with the church gang, that i swear is the source of all my fatness. All i ever do with them is barbeque and buffet. And i wonder why i'm putting on weight. Heh.

But they are the awesomest bunch ever. They have the whole summer planned out with fun activities to do. So i can't wait! :) (i hope i won't become too broke!)

Played a little tennis today. That's my exercise for the whole month. Hehehe. I only hit the ball twice. =P

Ok.. Really don't know what else to say! That's why i don't blog when i have nothing to say.. Coz people will just start getting bored and not read my blog foreverrrrr!! boo-hooooo!!

i've had a rough week. just let me indulge in being a drama queen for a bit. tee hee.

love you guys! and i'll update soon.. i promise! ;)

Something Worth Blogging About

2008-05-16T14:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday.. I thought my world was going to end because i had an ulcer in my mouth and a PIMPLE IN MY NOSE (!)...

I really wanted to blog about it just to tell everyone how sad and enraged i am.. and how stressed.. etc.. etc..

But TODAYYY... Guess what happened that is even MORE worth blogging about?!

My parents and sister specifically wrote e-mails.. seperate e-mails mind you.. seperate.. they each didn't know that ALL of them wrote.. to me saying that.... that...

I PUT ON WEIGHT!!!!!

Wth?! I'm soooo soooo soooo soooo soooo soooo SADDDD!! My life is overrrrrr!!

HEEEELLLLPPPPP!!

I mean it. If you can give me a really good idea on how to lose weight and lose weight quick.. Telll mehhhhhhh!!

Delayed Post =P

2008-05-11T18:54:00.000-07:00

Hello fellow blog-readers!

It's been a long long time. Puhahahaha!

Do you know why it's been so long? It's because I have been editing my first quarter film and have devoted 3 weeks of my precious life to making it look good.

I still don't like it.

Editing is just not my thing! I've been at school almost every night for the past 3 weeks cutting clips, hunting for music, changing the music, looking for sound effects, biting my nails, pulling my hair, crying, falling asleep, making promises to throw the computer on the floor.. and.. you get the idea.. Hehe.

But despite everything.. I still love filmmaking! Every aspect of it.. even.. *sigh*.. editing. Hehe.. I'm such a drama queen!

Ok. Moving on.. Here's a short pic spam on what's been going on.. There's more but i'll only include it in the next post because.. Hehe.. I'm not very good with arranging pictures.

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Here are pictures of the korean food i had at this 24-hour korean-chinese restaurant in Korea Town. We went after we finished editing. Hehehe

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And and.. Guess what?!

I got my Mac!!!! Muahahaha!!

So happyyyyy!! Thank you Daddy & Mummy!!

It's the best everrrr!!! Woo-hooooo! Hehehe

Process of editing. hehe. I get to do it at home now!

Yay! I'm a happy girl!

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Sorry. This is a super lazy post and the pictures are all weird. I don't know why.

And i started this post like 1 week ago. I just didn't finish it. Hehehe

I shall blog again when i have time >.<

After One Week oF Shooting

2008-04-24T15:04:00.000-07:00

On the 19th of April 2008, a good friend, Rachel Ong Wei Kim, departed from us. She was found dead on her kitchen floor. The murderer is yet to be found.

Boo-Ya! Were you scared?! Hehehehe

I bet not. But isn't it cool?! My crime scene.. Muahahaha!

It's for my First Quarter Film. My story was about a serial killer stalker. Hehe.. Still in the process of editing it. Gahh! I hate editing! >.<

Anywho, this post is gonna be one of those long ones again. You know the drill.. After a loooong week of shooting. There will usually be a looooong post. Hehe..

The pictures are very unorganized but i'll try my best to make sense of it. =P

I'll post by the days. Hehe. Genius.

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Day 1

We checked-out our equipment.

Seung and Joon taking care of our equipment. Good boys.

Then i had to take stalker pictures of me for my film. So Joon helped me. I seriously think he's an experienced stalker. He's really good at taking stalker pics. Hehe

Then then, I went to sebastian's house to take stalker pictures of his girlfriend.

Well, my stalker has to stalk more than one girl right?

Being Stalked...

Being stalked...

Dead!

Hahaha.. That was fun! =P

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Day 2

Was supposed to help Sebastian out with his shoot in school but i went to church instead. Does that make me good or bad? Hehe.

Anyway, Hana went to church with me and after that we went to...... Max Brenner!!! It was so damn good.

Pretty Menu

Chocolate Syringes! Can you believe it?! People can get high on those!

The chocolate making machine

Hana and Me!

Omelette that came with chocolate!

Waffles and ice cream and... chocolate!!!

After that, I DID go and help Sebastian out with his shoot. But he was almost done. So i did most of the cleaning up. Hehe

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Day 3

There was no shooting on that day. But we met up anyway coz we had to meet our actors in SoHo.

Take a look into Mune's mouth!

Stalker pictures

After that, Sebastian met up with us and we went for dinner in a Japanese restaurant. It was really good. I took pictures of everyone's food. But i'm too lazy to upload them all.

Hmm.. What shall we get?

Tired Seba & Me

Blur Mune & Me

Naughty Seung & Me

Didn't take one with Joon coz he was too far. Hehe.

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Day 4

Joon's film.

I was Director of Photography (DP). Again, that is just a fancy name for a cameraman.

I love being a DP but i really doubt my ability in it. =(

I had to carry the camera the whole day and take random shots of Mune (he was Joon's actor because apparently NYFA produces unreliable student actors.. bahh!). Anyway, we got to go to all the famous and tourist-y places in Manhattan. So it was really fun! =)

At Wall Street...

Me, skipping happily to take a picture with Mr. Bull

Mr Bull & Me

At SoHo...

Seung & Joon thinking about the next shot

Sebastian & Me fooling around =P

At Times Square..

The guys with the heavy stuff

Seung with his camera. He was DP as well coz he had his own camera and Joon wanted more angles.

Mune with his sign (it's part of the story)

Me with the NYFA camera

Ahh! I couldn't help it. It's Times Square!

Times Squareeee!

Sebastian had to take over for the tough shots

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Day 5

Seung's film.

Seung, Mr Easy-Guy, is always trying to make everything "easy". He shot in Union Square. We made 4 movies so far. 3 out of Seung's 4 movies were shot in Union Square.

His shoot turn out pretty good, besides the fact that.. yes, once again.. a NYFA student canceled on him. So Joon had to act for him.

Director and DP discussing shots.

So i started taking pictures of random things.

Waiting for the train. We had to go to Wall Street for the last scene.

The Actors that DID show up

Joon, the main actor

DP & Director, again

Hehe.. I was gaffer that day so i took a lot of pictures. =)

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Day 6

Sebastian's film.

It was such a long and tiring day. But Sebastian's movies are always very abstract and arsty-fartsy. So there is always a lot of work that has to be done and shots that has to be taken from many many many different angles. It's not easy when we only have ONE camera.

Seung, the gaffer, bouncing the light.

Director, DP & Actors.

OK.. Didn't take too many pictures with my camera coz Joon wanted me to take pictures for him. Boo!

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Day 7

Rachel's film.

So... I got up bright and early so that i can pick up my actor and crew members from the subway station. It was still early when I got out of the house, so i decided to take the 30 minutes walk from my house to the subway station.

Walk walk walk, I go. When i got there, i was just on time. But no one was there yet so i went to the bakery and got everyone breakfast. Then i waited and i waited and i waited.

40 minutes later, I get a call from Joon & Seung saying that they were gonna be late (i know.. understatement of the year, right?). So they took a taxi to my house and will wait outside my house for me.

Then, 10 minutes later, I see Sebastian running out of the subway station. Finally.

But still have to wait for the actor. So I gave Sebastian his breakfast. After he ate, he had to get water. So he left me waiting.. Then guess what happened?!

My nose started bleeding like mad! Seriously. Blood was just coming out like water and i couldn't stop it. It wasn't even those little drips of blood kind. It was like.. the Red Sea flowing out of my nose.

So i covered my face with my hand. And when Sebastian got back, he thought i was on the phone so he just ignored me. And i was trying to ask him to give me some tissue but i couldn't coz i was like drowning in my blood.

Then, i put out my hand, the one filled with blood. And Sebastian was like, "Whoa! Rachel! Is that fake bloood?!"

Shit. That's what you get for making too many crime scenes.

It was too funny so I had to take a picture in the hype of the moment. Haha

Anywayz, to cut the story short. My actor arrived 10 minutes later. Then we rushed to the cemetery to start shooting.

My crew was good. They really went all the way to get good shots for me. Whee! =)

My actor was really good too! He did all the scenes over and over again just so that we get the perfect shots. And he didn't even stop to rest so that he could get into character. Hahaha

We finally finished shooting in the evening. Late evening. And I took my first relaxed breath of the whole week. It was good.

Me & my crew. The best yet.

Everyone! (Hana was my actress)

Group Picture, Rachel style! HEhe i love it!

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Phew! If you finished reading all that.. I commend you. Or you must be really bored! Hehe

Either way.. you're GoOOoooD.

Hehehe.. Look out for my next long post!

My next film: Chekhovian Film.

*edit* I hate blogger. It always messes up my post whenever i post a long one. =(

Jakun-ness

2008-04-20T21:13:00.000-07:00

Just to set the record straight.. I do NOT eat a lot of fast food here.

There are a lot of famous fast food places here. So.. being the jakun person that i am.. i HAVE to try them all right?

Well, the best best one that i've eaten at more than once (i've only eaten McD's once also) is.... Wendy's!!

They have the BEST burgers and fries! Seriously. And it's pretty cheap i think. But i dunno if the one in Malaysia is expensive. Someone tell me once you get the stats ok? Hehehe

I even eat the pickles! It is so damn good.

Yummmm

The Famous Logo

Delicious Fries!

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The next place i went to was... *dum dum dum*... White Castle!

The burgers are really small and cute. It's pretty good. I didn't try the beef one but
the chicken was really good. But the fries are the criss cut(?) type which are pretty not nice to eat.

Not nice fries.

Nice mini burgers.

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Ok.. So that's the end of my food review. Hehehe

I'm so jakun. *blush blush*

Why Am I Blogging?

2008-04-14T21:51:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. Good question!

Maybe because:-

1. I have a shoot early in the morning tomorrow!
2. I haven't worn my retainers in about 6 months!
3. I have no location to shoot my movie this Thursday!
4. I feel fat!
5. I think i'm having a bad hair month!
6. I long for the smell of roti canai and asam laksa!
7. I wish i am rich!
8. Despite the many reasons why i should not do it.. I can't stop thinking of Max Brenner, the sexy, bald, chocolate man!
9. I wish i had pretty shoes! (if they can tap me to a different world, it would be best)
10. I wish that God would stop controlling my life for once but i'm afraid of what might happen! (so i thank him for controlling it, even if it's quite hard and frustrating)
11. I really don't know!

Tag!

2008-04-12T15:22:00.000-07:00

I got tagged!! Actually.. I asked her (spicy alexa) to tag me.. but same difference!

Whee! I love tags! Here i Gooooooo..

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Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Well...... if I ever get married.. before i'm 30.. Hehehe..

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Hmmm.. this is hard.. sitting on rollercoasters? Hahaha

3. If you have a close close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
Erm.. if he/she does that.. why are we close close close friends? I guess it depends on why we are friends in the first place..

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To be able to see my name on the big screen one day.. Hehehhe =P

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Well.. can YOU survive without money?? Bahhh.. My answer is NO! muahahaha

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My family, friends, and... myself =)

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
Honestly.. right now right now.. i feel like pee-ing.. hahahaha!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
no.. maybe.. i dunno.. can you repeat the question? hahaha =P

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
alexa - funny, nice, full of nonsense! =P
sara - sweet, adorable, down to earth! =)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Taller than me, sweet and nice, smart, good personality, witty, funny, athletic, protective(not in the controlling my life kinda way.. hahaha)............omg! it's a super long list.. so i'm just gonna cut it here.. =P

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
the type with shit witchy cackly laughs =P

13. What is your ambition?
to be a famous director! wait.. let me correct that.. to be a RICH and famous director! haha

14. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
What type of question is this? I guess it's by his/her actions.. and like the both the psychologists who tagged me said.. the way he/her speaks and their body language.. hahaha

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my dreams =)

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
feeling so paiseh all the time.. hehehe

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
sheryl? hehehe

19. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Directing my 3rd feature film (hehe =P).. maybe married.. rich & famous! muahahaha

20. Do you think you get hungry because you’re cold, or cold because you’re hungry?
i think that apples should be purple and bananas should be blue!

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i'm gonna taggggg...
1) Sheryl
2) Alina
3) Jo-Ann
4) Sandra
5) Leann

Gahh.. can't think of anyone else.. hehe.. it's not like i followed any of the rules in the instructions anyway.. muahahaha!

I love Tags!!

Lalalalala~

2008-04-09T19:50:00.000-07:00

I finally settled into my new place.. I have a table and a chair! Whee!

So i get to blog! muahahahaha! But guess what? after weeks of compiling pictures to blog.. i realized that i'm too lazy to do it.. hehehe =P

Anyhow, last week (?).. i can't remember when.. Joon decided to cook for Mune and me.. so we went to the korean supermarket to get korean ingredients to make korean food! *yum yum*

Mune helping Joon to cook the rice. Joon being professional. Me snapping away :)

Cook Cook Cook!

Looks yummy right?

Fry Fry Fry!

Oooh! This is a soup thingie thing! It's the BEST dish everrr! This is the picture before it was cooked.

And this was after! Omggg.. It was sooooo goood! I'm salivating right now.. Hahaha

Tofu Thing.. Really good too!

KimChiiiiiiii! So delicious! Me and Mune so jakun we ate almost all of Joon's supply.. hehe

All our food! Doesn't it look so delicious??!! It tasted delicious too!

This is a kimchi something something.. can't remember the name but it was goooood! and really spicy!

Before dinner. They wanted to kill me for taking so many pictures.. Hehe

SoJu!!

I'm so jakun, i even took a picture of the rice.. But who wouldn't? it's purpleeeee!

Ahhh~ are you jealous yet? hehe =P

Still rubbing it in your face..

Mmm.. we finished eating most of it.. hehe.. I had to do the dishes because i didn't help to cook .. boo! =(

And then... we ate more! Joon made nachos and cheese!

Omg! After we finished eating.. we could barely walk and Mune wouldn't stop farting. I kid you not.

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Today.. I have to say..

I am so freaking awesomeeeeeeeee!

You know why?

Because I assembled my own drawers!! Woo-Hoooooo!!

My Tools!

The assembling process

Ta-Daaaahhhh!

Then.. then.. not only that.. I cleaned my room! It's so clean and spacious now.. i don't even know what to do with the space.. hehehehe

My wardrobe

My picture collage! Thanks to Sheryl & Sang!

OK.. Have to admit a few things.....

I assembled the drawers wrong.. so now i have to live with it because there is no way to re-do it.. and there is little pieces of wood flying around my room and in my carpet and my body is itching everywhere >.<

New ApartMenT

2008-04-03T06:16:00.000-07:00

I took some pictures of the shared area in my apartment.. =)

I love it! Whee!

I'll take pictures of my room once i decorate it.. =P

It's clean right? Hehe

New RooM!

2008-04-01T17:26:00.000-07:00

I'm so happeeeEEEee!!

I finally moved out of my shitty apartment! Wheee!

But i'm staying in Queens now. Not in Manhattan. Sad.

But everything else is good!

I'm staying in an actual house now. So it's really nice. And the kitchen is so beautiful. I don't know how that is related but I really love the kitchen.

My room is still unfurnished now. Just one matress that I bought from Joon for $50. I don't know whether it's worth it. But he gave me a bedsheet, a blanket, and a chair for free! So it's all good.

Going to Ikea to buy furniture this Sunday. Whee!

Ikea is in New Jersey. So I gotta take a bus from somewhere. And I think it takes 2 hours or something like that. Thennn.. have to carry all the furniture I buy all the way to Queeeeens!

If you're reading this, you must be feeling really confused right? Coz 1 minute i'm so happy and excited. And the next minute I'm like so whiny. Hahaha!

Anywayz, I will upload pictures once I get my furniture and decorate my room nicely! I'm so excited! Can't wait for Sunday! =)

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About uploading my films, I'm still trying to figure it out. =(

I MisS EveRyOne! >.<

2008-03-26T17:52:00.000-07:00

I just suddenly felt that I miss everyone a lot (Yes, even you, Mom!).. I really do.. I miss Malaysian foood.. I miss Malaysian weather (believe it or not).. And I miss Malaysian people (well, not the people in general.. but you! yes, you! reading my blog.. you are amongst the best Malaysians i know.. be honored.. be very honored!)! Hahaha.. i don't know what i'm saying..

Anyway.. there's not one day that goes by when I don't bump into a crazy person in New York! But it's all good fun! Hehe

And.. And I'm trying very hard not to do my story board for my next film.. and my shot list.. and my shooting schedule.. gahh! (I have to hand it in tmr by the way.. hehe)

I'm in a very different crew this week.. So i'm pretty sad.. I hope that I can get along with my new crew.. I'm really excited about shooting though.. This week's movie is a Music Film! Awesomeness. =D

I need ideas for my first movie with dialogue! I'll be pitching the script next week.. So if anyone has any good ideas.. please let me know! I'll put your name in the credits! Serious.

Update on bleeding feet: Still bleeding and has turned very very hard! When i touch it, it feels like a tree bark and it hurts like.. omg! i can't describe the pain but i just touched it 3 times, trying to figure out the word!.. it hurts so bad! >.< color="#cc33cc">coz i just bought 2 new books! Nothing makes me happier than.. beautiful, undamaged books that are interesting! whee! =)